Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-
It’s a rarity that I post twice but when things change in your life, it deems time fit for another post. After the post earlier (Shades Down and Lights Off), I sat on my bed and just began to think. I thought about God, my life, my past, my present, my hopes, and desires. To calm the anxious thoughts in my mind, I searched for the 8AM sermon at All Nations Worship Assembly. Instead of a traditional sermon, Apostle Stevenson got up and began to pray against the spirits of death, suicide, and anxiety. Man oh man, that prayer wrecked me. He had no idea that a young girl in SC would listen to something he imparted into Chicago earlier that morning. I sat, cried, worshipped and kneeled and in that moment I felt the beautiful presence of God. In my lowest of lows, His love came to the rescue once again. I removed my clothes of sadness and mourning and changed into garments of joy. My peace returned to me and I decided to go to church again: this time in new garments!
How great is our God, that when we think it’s all over He shows up? When we turn to Him and express our need for Him, he comes to our rescue- so faithful and so kind, is he. There’s a lyric in this song called “Reckless Love” that says “There’s no wall you won’t kick down/ Lie you won’t tear down/ Coming after me” And today, He kicked down some self-made walls and he tore down the lies I was being enticed to believe. Loves, I want to affirm you today. You are NOT a lost cause. You are NOT hopeless. You are NOT going to remain in the same situation overwhelmed by the same things. God STILL loves you. He STILL chooses you. He STILL desires you and though your mind may say otherwise, HE thinks of you the SAME. Today, in my darkest moment the Father showed up in grace, mercy and reckless love. You are not alone, for the Creator of all good things comes to you- ready in hand with whatever you need.
Thank you for the prayers, thanks for being my online family and thanks for giving me the freedom to live a transparent life. I love you all very much!