Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-
I’m gearing up for the end of the semester. I thought that I reached a place above adversity, one where I could not be touched by the cares and concerns of the world.
Friends, in all honesty, I became comfortable. Adversity has this amazing way of keeping one in conscious awareness of their need for God. It’s like when I’m in trouble, I am more aware of my need for Him. Sad, but true. So, I became comfortable and I knew I needed Him but my desperation for His presence began to wane and I continued to live life for me.
I believe that God loves us so much that He shakes up our world to causes us to become aware again. It’s like, He doesn’t want us to ever come to this place where we think we don’t need Him. Can you imagine loving someone but treating them as if they weren’t necessary? I believe we treat the Lord this way. We love Him but we live life as if He’s not necessary. Long story short, the floodgates opened and adversity hit like a neverending wave. I mean… a neverending wave! From school complications to my automobile to concerns with my mental health to the most recent trial the lost of both my sister’s (my roommate) and I’s jobs. It was as if lost came just in time for the holidays and we’re in this familiar position of needing him, a position that forces our hand into trust.
I thought I trusted God. I did. I thought I understood His love for me, this notion that because He loves me He wouldn’t leave me without. Yet, my heart became increasingly full of fear and anxiety wrapped me in a bear hug as to say “Welcome Home!” Even in the midst of my perceived weakness, He never changed. He loved me with a steadfast love. You know, as I get older I understand more and more that life is full of change. One day we’re at the top, the next we’re at the bottom. One day we have it all, one day we have nothing. One day we believe with all our hearts and the next we are full of fear and doubt. In all the highs and lows, His love is steadfast – it doesn’t change.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23 ESV
So, how do I respond to the only consistent thing in my life? With gratitude. I respond gratefully for such a love that I don’t deserve. I respond with a heart to love others with such intention and consistency. I know that I will make mistakes along the way but the least I could do is try. Friends, I am loved well by a God that could choose any day not to love me. Yet, He chooses me every single time. He chooses you and that is simply beautiful. I pray that you all do not become afraid with the presence of adversity, that you are full of the love of God. I pray that you all have a deep awareness of God’s goodness and rest in your eternal need for Him. I pray that you are filled to the brim with love.
May you rest in His faithfulness, may you bask in His love.