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Have you ever faced a hard decision? Like, either you’re going to obey Him or you’re going to live life the way that you desire? Once upon a time, not too long ago, I too was at this crossroad: either to obey Him or to live life for me.
The hardest decisions we must make are not the ones that we don’t feel but the decisions that we feel deeply.
So… as many of you may or may not have known, once upon a time, I was in a relationship with this (in my mind) dope guy. I mean (in my mind) He was the next best thing since sliced bread. He was it! You hear me? He was “the” perfect age, perfect height, he looked like a Ken doll, he had all the qualities I would have wanted for a guy: kindness, compassion, generosity, and intelligence. He could do no wrong. He was the one I was waiting for… or so I thought. I think we all in our minds imagine our lives with certain things: certain careers, certain houses, certain cars, and even certain people. It is like we race toward the finish line to make sure that we are set and therefore we settle for things and people that temporarily satisfy. This is what I did with my relationship, I settled.
On a random Tuesday morning, God wanted to speak about the thing I held dear in my heart. To tell you the truth, I held this person I loved more dearly than I did Him. Yep, I was guilty of allowing someone to sit on His throne. That morning, God came and He shared some truth with me and asked me to let my relationship go. I had a choice, either I was going to trust my Father and obey or I was going to hold on to something out of the fear that what I was letting go, I would never find again.
I chose to let go: not because I was brave, not even because I knew what was coming, but simply because I trusted God and His choices for my life.
So, I obeyed God… now what? I obeyed and nothing really changed: I’m single and I still desire companionship. I obeyed and nothing really changed: I’m still not as financially secure as I would prefer. I obeyed and nothing really changed: I’m still navigating through life alone and I don’t have anyone I can confide in. These are just a few examples of our responses to obedience. Ladies and gents, God never promised immediate change as the reward for obedience, but he did promise that trusting in Him will not cause us to be ashamed/humiliated/embarrassed. Though it may appear that our act of obedience has done nothing, in retrospect that simple act has changed everything. My act obedience wasn’t magic, it didn’t shield the pain of my decision, it didn’t make my decision easier but it gave me a peace about my future.
Obedience to the Father is an act of love and trust, not into what he has for you but into who he is and his nature to be good.
So, I obeyed God…now what?
But Samuel replied: “Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the Lord? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams.” 1 Samuel 15:22 NIV