With Everything Inside…

Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-

“With everything inside…” those were the words of a song I wrote Christmas Day, 2017. It was a random expression of how I felt about the Father. My dad’s friend sat at the piano and I just began to sing, “With everything inside, I will offer you my worship…” These words came from a place of freedom, I felt safe and free to sing what I heard in my heart.

The thought came to me… when was the last time I felt free? I mean, really free. The freedom to sing, the freedom to song-write, the freedom to just be different in the midst of a crowd that wants me to be the same. The last time I was truly free was at the beginning of the year when I was writing more and expressing the love I received with the world. Then, like many stories, pain met me and threw me off course. I stopped writing, I stopped singing, I started to withhold my worship. With everything became with some things and then with some things became with nothing. I had nothing to offer, nothing to bring and nothing to say.

Today, I listened to a few voice memos and started to reflect on the songs the Lord gave me. I listened and was immediately transported to those moments of prayer, worship, and authenticity. I was reminded of a piece of myself that was lying dead from pain- my heart’s posture as a worshipper and a songwriter. It’s crazy how good God really is. Like, when I take time to think about His awesomeness, I’m enthralled in this ugly cry place of gratitude. I’m thankful that in love, he reminded me of my identity in him. I’m his writer and that is enough!

So… lovelies, I encourage you to go to the moments where you felt free. Learn from those moments, reflect on those moments and find your time with Him again. Be His first and let everything else come as a result of loving Him more. Always remember that He loves you deeply!

Xoxo,

Simone

So, I Obeyed God…Now What?

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Have you ever faced a hard decision?  Like, either you’re going to obey Him or you’re going to live life the way that you desire?  Once upon a time, not too long ago, I too was at this crossroad: either to obey Him or to live life for me.

The hardest decisions we must make are not the ones that we don’t feel but the decisions that we feel deeply.

So… as many of you may or may not have known, once upon a time, I was in a relationship with this (in my mind) dope guy.  I mean (in my mind) He was the next best thing since sliced bread.  He was it!  You hear me?  He was “the” perfect age, perfect height, he looked like a Ken doll, he had all the qualities I would have wanted for a guy: kindness, compassion, generosity, and intelligence.  He could do no wrong.  He was the one I was waiting for… or so I thought. I think we all in our minds imagine our lives with certain things:  certain careers, certain houses, certain cars, and even certain people.  It is like we race toward the finish line to make sure that we are set and therefore we settle for things and people that temporarily satisfy.  This is what I did with my relationship, I settled.

On a random Tuesday morning, God wanted to speak about the thing I held dear in my heart.  To tell you the truth, I held this person I loved more dearly than I did Him.  Yep, I was guilty of allowing someone to sit on His throne.  That morning, God came and He shared some truth with me and asked me to let my relationship go.  I had a choice, either I was going to trust my Father and obey or I was going to hold on to something out of the fear that what I was letting go, I would never find again.

I chose to let go:  not because I was brave, not even because I knew what was coming, but simply because I trusted God and His choices for my life.

So, I obeyed God… now what?  I obeyed and nothing really changed:  I’m single and I still desire companionship.  I obeyed and nothing really changed:  I’m still not as financially secure as I would prefer.  I obeyed and nothing really changed:  I’m still navigating through life alone and I don’t have anyone I can confide in.  These are just a few examples of our responses to obedience.  Ladies and gents, God never promised immediate change as the reward for obedience, but he did promise that trusting in Him will not cause us to be ashamed/humiliated/embarrassed.  Though it may appear that our act of obedience has done nothing, in retrospect that simple act has changed everything.  My act obedience wasn’t magic, it didn’t shield the pain of my decision, it didn’t make my decision easier but it gave me a peace about my future.

Obedience to the Father is an act of love and trust, not into what he has for you but into who he is and his nature to be good.

So, I obeyed God…now what?

Xoxo,

Simone 

But Samuel replied: “Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the Lord? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams.” 1 Samuel 15:22 NIV

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The Art Of Being Balanced

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Happy Monday!  This is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.  The sun is shining and the birds are chirping and to tell you the truth- today is just one great day.  I was studying for a book club that I am apart of- we have our first meeting this Saturday and I feel slightly old because I’m apart of a book club. lol. Anyways…one of the scriptures in the book is 3 John 1:2, and it says

“Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.”

For some weird reason this scripture stuck out to me .  It was as if John was writing to me, that I would be happy and healthy in my natural life as well as in my spiritual life.  I find that in the body of Christ, we move from one extreme to the other.  Either we are thriving in our natural lives but lack in our spiritual walk or we are peaking in our spiritual walk with God yet our natural lives lack the same sense of growth.  I believe that God is balanced.  He helps us grow in our inner spirit man, as well as help us grow as an individual here on the earth.

It is not the will of God that we lack anything.  He is the good shepherd that takes care of His sheep.  He supplies all of our needs and He grants us the desires of our hearts if we delight ourselves in Him.  It is not the will of God that we mismanage our money, sowing seed that we don’t have.  God is infinite wisdom and in all of His principals is a sense of balance and cohesiveness to His word.  God is love yet he operates in judgement/truth.  He is balanced, so why shouldn’t we be the same?

Our lives, whether natural or spiritual, should bring God glory. How do we bring Him glory if we are perpetually struggling?  If we don’t have anything to contribute to the kingdom of Heaven. This is about more than money, but includes time, love, our witness and kindness.  We were designed to bring God glory and that is why we must live a balanced lifestyle.  I can’t be so spiritual that I can’t pay my bills, that my kids don’t have food on the table.  God supplies the need, but what do we do with what He gives us?   Are we good stewards with what He has placed in our hands???

My spiritual life and my natural is supposed to prosper and bring God glory…both of them together.

Have a great day and we’ll talk soon.

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Meet The Love Of My Life

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I have mentioned my love in prose and poetry but I don’t think you all have been properly introduced.  Blog family meet Yeshua aka Jesus Christ (the Lover of my Soul), Yeshua meet my blog family!!! Now that you have been properly introduced, I thought I would make something very clear.  I love both groups very much but family, this dude (Yeshua) is my ace, my rock, my love, He’s everything to me.  He has been with me through thick and thin and His love inspires some of the most popular posts on this website.  So please don’t be offended family, when I talk about Him a lot. That is what people in love do, they talk about the person that have made their soul come alive- He has rejuvenated me, He makes my spirit comes alive!   So you might hear me talk about my Love a lot and I’m telling you… Like real talk!  His love is not like any love that I’ve ever known.  One taste of His love and your soul cease to crave love and happiness, in Him is fulfillment.  I hope that you guys get along and I pray that ya’ll become friends, or it might get a little awkward.  -_- .  Well peeps, I’ll talk to you later and I wish you an amazing day!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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The Small Stuff

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I’ve come to the understanding that we have been projecting God wrong.  YES- I said WRONG.  We have projected God to be this uber-big guy that is out of touch with what we go through.  He is too big to care about our day to day activities,  and He is too huge to care about our small needs.  That is the projection that we have given to the world about our God.

I was reading about Elisha today and the story of the ax falling in the water.  Are you guys familiar with that story? Anyways, the prophets were cutting down trees with axes and one of the men, his ax head fell into the water.  This man was so disturbed because the ax did not belong to him, it was borrowed.  So Elisha gave the man instructions and the ax head began to float on top of the water so that it could be retrieved.  The man got the head of the head of the ax back and continued about his business.

This story seems very small and trivial, like who cares about an ax head and a man?  The point of the story is to show that God cares about what we deem small, trivial, and unimportant.  God cares about our day to day needs.  He cares about our emotions and the feelings of our hearts.  God deeply, genuinely cares about us!

When we let go of this idea that God is too big to care, we will find our Christianity (faith in Jesus Christ) to be more rewarding.  Why have a relationship with someone who does not care?  God isn’t like that – He cares about everything.  He cares about disease and he cares that my dog is not feeling well.  He cares about poverty and he cares about my house having a leak.  He cares about the big, small and in between things in our lives because He loves us.  Love cares about everything.

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Love With All You Got

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Sometimes in life, we have to give our all.  We have to give all of our effort, time and energy to see the change we seek in our lives.  It’s the same with love- in life, there comes a time when we have to love with everything.  There comes a time in our lives where we realize that we would like to love deeper and be loved deeply….the superficiality of love doesn’t seem to satisfy anymore.  I’ve learned that in order to learn how to receive love, I had to give love.  I learned to receive love deeply, because I loved deeply.  I came to the realization that in order to receive an “all-out” love, you have to love “all-out”- with everything.  So this evening, I encourage you to love with all you got.  Love the unlovable, love those who don’t understand you, love those who never experienced love the way you have- love with everything.

One thing my friends know about me is that I love deeply.  When I say I love you- I love you.  I love with everything and I prove this love with my actions and words.  I love with everything and I don’t regret it.  I don’t regret giving all of my love,  because I know that the love I put out in this world is given to me everyday- by a God who loved me before I loved myself.  He loved me with everything, so I love others with everything.  I give all of my love!

Perfect love casts out all fear, so as I love- I become less afraid of hurt and rejection.  As I love, I don’t fear disappointment and things not working out.  As I love, I fear no more and I live my life to the fullest.  I live with purpose as I love with everything, so love with all you got!  Give it your all and know that each moment you choose to love is worth it.  

Have a great evening.  Spend some time with you family and friends and just enjoy time to show love.

Until next time,

Mo 🙂