I Chose…

Hello Authentic Lovers!

Just a little while ago I posted a poem called, “I Just Don’t Know”, to express my angst at making a decision to love someone from my past .  I think we have all found ourselves at these crossroads, deciding whether to trust again.  After I posted the poem, I took some time to talk to God.  I spoke to Him about my feelings and concerns. I told Him that I didn’t want to be stupid, I didn’t want to open my heart again to someone that messed up the first time.  I brought my grievances before God and articulated every hurtful thing this individual has ever done to me in the last 3-4 years.  I was so serious about reminding God of what this individual had done.  In the midst of my rant/cry fest, the Holy Spirit spoke to me:

“Love remembers no wrong…” (I Cor 13: 5 paraphrased)

I allowed those words to sink into my heart, I felt like such a hypocrite.  I have asked God for forgiveness for so many things and He has gracefully forgiven me.  He has forgotten my wrongs and He does not bring them up to remind me of the awful person I used to be.  God has forgotten my past, why can’t I do the same for this person?  The same way God made me new is the same way He can make this person new.  He is not a respect of persons, He doesn’t play favorites.  The Word of God, shocked me like an electric current and caused me to think about my actions.  God’s word has that effect on people.  I thought about what God said and I decided that I was going to forgive (completely) and forget.

Today I made a choice.  I chose to forgive.  I chose to let go.  I chose to see people the way God sees them.  I chose to love again, even if it’s the same person.  I chose to be happy.  I chose to forget the past or what people may think.  I chose to live my life, taking risks knowing that with great risk comes great reward.  I’ve made my choice and I chose to love because love remembers no wrongs. 

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Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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I Just Don’t Know

I used to have all the answers

About how I felt about you

But, now I’m speechless…

I just don’t know

I used to be so clear

Clear about you

But, now no words come….

I feel stuck in the middle

Of speech and silence

Of happiness and anger

Of certainty and doubt

I just don’t know

To hear that you dream of me

The same way I dream of you

To hear that you think of me

As much as I think of you

To hear that I’m in your heart

The same way you’re in mine

My mouth is vacuum-sealed shut

Afraid that if I open my mouth

Things will change

You’ll decide otherwise

Because for the first time in my life

I have to decide whether it’s right

To love you again

To keep you at arm’s length

To allow between us more distance

And to tell you the truth

I’m no longer confident

That if I follow my heart

It won’t lead me astray

My gut failed me before

When it gambled on you

So now what?

What should I do?

I just don’t know….

“(c) Simone Holloway, 2014”

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