Grace, Poise and Confidence

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Happy Friday!  I don’t have class today and I smile on the inside knowing that there is a God and He loves me dearly.  This week has been such a busy week and I cannot wait to get a free moment to sleep!

DISCLAIMER: I’m talking to the Ladies today!  Guys, you all are awesome but I’m speaking to my sisters, aunts, nieces, friends, and mentees about something missing from our world.  

Anyways…. I wanted to talk about something that is near and dear to my heart.  I am a big proponent of equality and ridding isms in our world, but I am also super concerned with this push to be a bad “B” rather than to be a lady filled with grace, class and poise.  We as women are powerful!  We are extremely powerful when we are filled with class, poise,grace, gentleness and strength.  I think because of the injustices, we have been taught that we have to assert our authority and become aggressive to be recognized which could be nothing further from the truth.  I love to see young women who carry themselves with class, not arrogance but a steady confidence in who they are and their ability.

My mom taught me to carry myself as a lady, she used to always tell me that when I entered into a room- my positive attitude and confident presence would speak for itself.  I did not have to show off my body for attention, I did not have to be the loudest person in the room, I did not have to esteem my own accomplishments and brag about my  abilities.  If I did a great job, those I impacted would speak my praises for themselves.  I used to think that she was just being super old fashioned and I spent time doing the complete opposite.  I came across as one who lacked self-worth, one who was super insecure and one who did not know the finesse of being the woman God created me to be.  This guy I was talking to said he wanted a girl that was just like a guy but with a different sex organ…ummm… I could never be that for him: because even though I was cool in conversation and extremely easy-going I was not a guy and I had no desire to become one.  There is something so amazing about living a life of class, respect and honor as a young woman.  This is not something that should be shunned or looked at as of days of old but something that should be adopted and revisited as a society.

Based upon experience, I’ve enjoyed my interactions with the guys around me by being who I am: a classy, gracious young woman.  It’s like my behavior, pulls out the gentlemen that are inside of them.  I experience more chivalry, more intimate conversations about life, and a supreme level of trust that came from an air of gentleness and security.  Our strength does not come from our aggression but rather from our gentleness.  I think God designed women the way he did to pull out the best in the men/world around them.  He made us powerful vehicles of life and he created within us this art of  cultivation and  beautification.  We make the world beautiful and we make the lives of our significant others beautiful with our words, mannerism and infectious attitudes.  It’s time that we uplift and build the rights of women around the world- by teaching each other that we are worth more than what we have been labeled.  We are not the property of men or society but we belong to a God who created us in grace to exude grace.

Former First Lady Michelle Obama is goals where it concerns grace, class and poise!

Until next time,

Simone

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In The Clouds

You know that moment when you almost loose yourself…
I lost myself, distracted in the company of another
but I felt the hand of God yank me back to reality-
Like, no girl- I didn’t make him for you.
I sense that yanking right now, pulling me out of fantasy developed in absence and back into the reality of waiting on you.
I chuckled to myself because I knew that this Holy repellent was working,
and there was no need for any searching because I already knew the answer…
You’re my John Smith and I’m your dark-skinned Poca
and this isn’t some Disney story line that’s been manipulated by a creative writer,
but a poem penned by a fighter who have fought for the chance at your heart.
Darling, I can’t remember the last time I penned your praises- or the last time I smiled because I knew I was where I was supposed to be.
Shhh… your secret is safe with me.
I held my tongue and I’ve zipped my lips,
but on the inside my heart is doing somersaults and flips- with pure joy and excitement of what’s to come.
You’re the one.
OMG! I can’t believe I just said that aloud
My heart is so proud to be claimed by you.
I’m so shy and I’m such a prude,
cheeks blushing at my confession-
heart pounding by this truth session,
that even a serum could not confuse.
I simply have nothing to lose-
by being completely free and transparent,
because it is apparent that I am totally and incandescently in love.
And why shouldn’t I be?
I spent so many years emotionally beaten-
beaten my the winds of rejection and insecurities.
Tossed by high winds and violent seas.
Spent so many years asking “why me?”
so many that I am physically exhausted by that question.
No longer accepting suggestions,
on how to live my life.
Torn by envy, dragged by strife- so now I’m in this good place,
in this good head space- I choose to celebrate,
what’s been placed into my hands.
I take a stand,
and I say “yes” to you.
No matter what, “I do.”
And it is with this conviction,
with this detailed attention –
that I give my all.
I’m no longer scared of the fall,
as I jump off this cliff.
I choose to allow my spirit to lift,
me into the clouds.
As I wait to hear the sound,
of your voice beckoning me.
Darling, I am free to be,
in you.

©Simone Holloway, 2016

Invisible Hands

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

God must not be moving.  That is the thought that runs through our minds when we see all of the chaos and confusion around us.  God must not be moving.  How could He be moving in the midst of this? Plus,  I don’t see Him.  I don’t see Him moving. Good thing, faith is not dependent upon our eyesight. Faith is dependent on our trust and belief in God.

For we walk by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7 KJV

Chaos.  Complete disorder and confusion.  That is what I am seeing in my life right now, a juxtaposition being that I am also free- falling in the Will of God.  It’s crazy that in the midst of my obedience to God in expectation of the promise, all I see is confusion and chaos.  My current situation shows the promise being impossible.  My life is set up in impossibility- the perfect environment for the presence of God.

 Jesus looked upon them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 KJV

Maybe this is where I need to be, maybe this is where the Lord was leading me- into the place of impossibility so that His glory can be revealed on a greater level.  God does His best work in the land of impossible and reveals Himself the best in the area of nothingness.  And maybe, just maybe…He was waiting for me to be void so that he can create something to fill the void forever.

The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep.  And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. Genesis 1:2 ESV

The beauty of God is that when we think He is not moving, those are the moments that He actually is- being Spirit moving His invisible hands.  Naked to the human eye but tangible to His spoken Word.  He is not only moving; but he is watching, orchestrating, rebuilding and working on bringing His promises concerning us to pass.  God is moving, and just because we can’t see it doesn’t mean movement is not happening.  I’m reminded of the air we breath, though naked to our physical eyes- we witness it’s power within us each and every day.  If for a moment we forget to breathe, our lives could be cut short from lack of oxygen in our lungs.  We need air to be alive, yet we will never touch an air particle in our lifetime.  We need something that is not tangible, that holds no form or shape.  Isn’t it crazy how God’s word is sort of the same, intangible to our fingertips yet necessary for our being to function (including our fingertips).  We need His Word and His Word is moving to make us  into who He desires for us to be.

So shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it. Isaiah 55:11 ESV

God is moving.  We just cannot see it.  And to tell you the truth, that’s okay because our sight does not hinder His movement.  I want to encourage you guys tonight to let you know that there is still hope in what is to come.  There is still hope.  Trust in the hand of the Lord, though invisible to you; vital to your well being.  I hope each of you have a great night!

Until next time,

Simone 🙂

And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord. Luke 1:45 ESV

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Collision

Two worlds propelling towards each other 

at high speed 

I need 

to duck for cover 

as my world begins to turn-up-side down

A smile lifts my cheeks as 

I think of the weeks 

it took to get to this place

An infinite space

of dunamis power 

shining in this real hour 

As these two worlds continue to 

await their scheduled spontaneous meeting 

as time continue to be fleeting 

I feel the pull of the upcoming collision

resulting from a divine decision

releasing God’s promised word on the earth

no need to search 

for what’s already set into stone

by God alone.

Heaven collides with the earth  

and all that’s been promised is now-

on the surface.

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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Glow

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

Have you ever looked at someone and it seemed like that person was glowing? Like they had light radiating from the inside of them? 

Well gang… That is how I want to be, I want to glow. I want the light of Christ to radiate out of me and for people to be drawn to my presence. The drawing won’t be because of anything that I’ved done per se but because of the person living on the inside of me- His light would make me glow. I think this glowing is what makes one beautiful. Yes some have beauty that are genetically in their favor, yes some are amazing with makeup but this beauty and glow I seem to see in my own life is not one’s body being beautiful but actually the beauty of one’s spirit and soul.

I want to radiate Christ in everything I do because in Him lies true beauty. 

I want to glow! 

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

P.S. Will you glow with me?

Vacations, Birthdays and Gratitude

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

God is good!  That is my simple declaration for the day regardless of what it looks like, regardless of what it feels like- God is good.  I just got home from Orlando and it was wonderful!  I love vacations, birthdays, anniversaries; really any need for celebrations.  I love to celebrate.  I think that life has a way of sucking the life out of us, it has a way of taking our joy and stealing our peace.  Life has this dark, depressing way of ruining our dreams and reminding us of all of our failures.  This is why I love celebrations, because it’s God’s way of causing us to reflect on life with complete gratitude.  Yes, life may not be the best- but we are alive and therefore, God is good.  Yes, the struggle is real- but regardless, God is good.  Celebrations have a way of filling our hearts with gratitude.

My family and I vacationed in Orlando for my mother’s birthday. It was nice seeing my mom relax for a change.  Sometimes, ministry stresses us out and we need a little more grace to make it from day to day- just a little bit more.  I think my mom needed a little bit more grace and just a few days to get away from all of the responsibility that has been placed on her shoulders- so we went on vacation.  My mom was so carefree; I watched as she laughed more, smiled more, and just had an awesome time. Her happiness made me happy and I began to reflect on the goodness of God towards His people.

I think God has a way of slowing down time; a simple way for us to see the world around us.  He has a way of showing us that glimmer of light in the midst of darkness.  He shows us the light so that we may have hope, hope that everything though it may appear dark and dim will be alright.  He is light.  He is hope.  He is good.

So today, Happy Monday and please reflect on the goodness of God.  I know life is tough.  I know life can take you for a whirl.  I know life has this tendency to try your faith, but have hope in God.  Look for the light in the midst of the darkness and understand that there is always hope because He is good.  Today, be filled with gratitude and love for our Creator!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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The Call For Salvation

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

I received this message in my email that I thought I would share from you.  This email was sent from Neil Vermillion and I thought that what he had to say this morning was great, it expressed God’s heart to bring salvation. Disclaimer: *The speech of the text is written in the format of God speaking to humanity.* I believe we have men and women among us that are prophets, mouthpieces of God- speaking to humanity God’s heart, will and intentions.  So here it goes!

“At times I speak in riddles, in symbols, in pictures, in mysteries. And everyone demands an answer, demands an interpretation. But where have you been in years prior? Why have you been so distant until this day? Why do you not respond to the tender, soft, and gentle voice in which I speak? Why do you ignore these, and why is that you will only turn your ear when catastrophe and calamity come to your neighbor’s door?

For so long I have called out to you, and so long I have remained patient. And still, even today I remain patient. But let me encourage you, do not delay. Do not hesitate to come to me, to know me, to love me, to allow yourself to be changed. For these matters are important, and you so easily trade important, for that which is unimportant. And still you do not listen.

But my love for you is great. My commitment to you is great. My faithfulness to you is great. And I will redeem. I will restore. I will rescue, and I will save. In spite of mistakes, rebellion, and deception, I have come to save. I have come to restore the breach, to repair the broken fences, and to heal. So though you find yourself on the wrong side of the fence, trust in my goodness and in my heart save, for it is still not too late.

Regardless of the mistakes of your past, my redemption is so much greater. Regardless of how you have lived, I can save. So step out from where you are, and engage your heart with mine. I will not turn you away, but will embrace you as my very own. I will welcome you with arms wide open, standing and looking from a far distance waiting for your return to me.

And when you come, I will not shame you, or reject you. I will wash and cleanse you. I will give you fine garments and new shoes. I will put a crown upon your head, and a ring upon your finger. We will sit and dine together. And you will be filled and my joy will surround you on every side.

So trust in my heart for you, because my love for you is great. My desire to rescue is great. My patience is great. So come to me, and do not delay. For I will not turn you away, but will welcome you with my arms wide open.”

So, no matter where you are right now in life- God is extending himself to you!  Please comment below with your thoughts and hopefully, I will speak to you all soon!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Butterflies

There’s something about butterflies

maybe it’s their transformation of beauty

that simply

takes my breath away….

Or maybe,

It’s the fact that when you’re around the one you love

it’s as if 1000 of them are inhabiting your inner being

allowing the one you are seeing

to glow with the beams of perfection

it’s a lovely manifestation

of love covering all faults.

Even now these little reflections

of the glory of God

are causing my heart to flutter at the sight of you…

the beating of their wings match the beating of my heart

and I watch as God paints this work of art

with His ring finger – twining the two

of us.

In a world full of heartache and lies,

darling you cause me to be filled with butterflies.

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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Body Shaming

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

I know it’s extremely late, but I just got a spare moment to write to you all about something that has been placed on my heart.  Whether you realize it or not, I speak a lot about being transparent on this blog because I believe that transparency creates freedom; freedom to believe in yourself, freedom to love and just plain freedom to live.  Since, I stand by this belief system- I have made it my purpose to walk this thing out.  How can I encourage transparency among you guys and not walk in myself???

So tonight, I wanted to speak with you all about something I am currently working on to overcome.  When I was 15 years old, I was involved in some friendships, relationships and etc that were very toxic to my well-being.  These individuals ministered the message of “never enough” in their eyes- me being myself, was not enough for them.  So… being filled with all manners of insecurities, branching from situations of my past- I quickly believed this saying.  I wasn’t enough, and would never be enough unless I did something to prove otherwise.  This obsession with validation became a door for anorexia.

Anorexia nervosa (anorexia) is defined as an eating disorder characterized by abnormal body weight, the intense fear of gaining weight and a distorted perception of body weight. (Mayo Clinic, 2003) This eating disorder became my acquaintance as I slowly realized how much I hated myself.  I hated the way I looked, I hated how “thick” I was., I hated that my lips were so big,  I hated my complexion and everything that made up me because in my mind- I was not beautiful and would never be beautiful.  I equated beauty with equality and acceptance, while maintaining that if I just lost a few more pounds I would be beautiful.

So for two years..I lived a lifestyle of lying.  I ate nonexistent big breakfasts and I ate just enough “lunch” to skip dinner, I lived a lifestyle of creating this discipline of neglecting my body of the fuel it needed to grow.  I didn’t want to grow wide but rather tall and skinny like all the models in  my favorite magazines.  I began to shame myself, there was no need for anyone else to shame me.  “I’m so fat!” became apart of my vocabulary and when I couldn’t fit into my pants just right- the world ended because my thighs needed a little more room to breathe. I hated me.

So now…I’m 22 years old, building this fabulous life with God when I notice that my weight  has increased.  I love me, or so I thought until I couldn’t fit into my jeans and had to go a size up- and those old insecurities began to flare their heads.  “I’m so fat!” became once again the language of my life and I’m terrified to weigh myself and see what eating my feelings have truly done to me.  “I am fearfully and wonderfully made….” I take a deep breath and say the scripture over and over- I am beautiful with my love handles.  I am gorgeous with my muffin top.

Uggghhh…but it becomes harder to believe and I sense a trigger on the horizon, so I talk to a friend to see what I can do.  You know the Enemy tries us in areas to see if we will fall back into our old habits and ways.  I started eating healthy and I stopped counting calories, but here comes the old joker ready to make mention of the ways I haven’t been eating good.  My friend told me to step on the scale to truly see how much I weighed- I only gained 4 pounds.  The Enemy had me believing I gained 10-15 pounds, that I was getting more and more unattractive at the second because of my love handles and the extra pudginess of fat that cover my abdomen but he’s a liar.  I only gained 4 pounds…. 4 pounds.  I was complaining about 4 measly pounds.

I learned something today, learn to love yourself in all aspects of your life and that true confidence is understanding that the Word of God is true and therefore everything else is irrelevant.  I thought I would share that with you…..

If you or someone is suffering from an eating disorder, please do not keep that hidden to yourself- share with someone you trust and begin getting your life back as soon as possible.  You can beat this mental disease, I know you can – through understanding that God loves you and that He made you perfect in His image.  Some days you are not going to feel beautiful, some days you are not going to feel loved, but all in all you are loved and you are beautiful. 

I am loved and I am beautiful.  The more I say this, the more I believe this and the more it becomes true.

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Soulmate

May you find your soulmate…

that person that make you catch your breath as they walk through the door

that person that makes everything in life sure 

that person that seek to make you smile 

that person that make your heart skip for miles

May you find your better half…

that person that makes life worthwhile 

that person who’s number is the only one you want to dial 

that person whose laughter becomes your song 

that person that makes your spirit strong 

May you find your rib…

that person that was designed for you 

that person that through every storm is willing to go through 

that person that is loyal and true

that person that you just knew – was for you 

May you find the love of your life…

that person that cultivate your dreams 

that person that effortlessly seem

to make life better 

May you find your living love letter….

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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