I Am Too Proud To Beg

Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers- 

Happy Pre-Christmas Week!  I’m home for the holidays and I can feel the hustle and bustle of excitement in the air.  It’s been a while since we’ve talked, so I thought I would share something with each of you tonight.

As I began to gear up for dinner prep, I began to think about the holidays as a whole.  As many of you know, I ended a long-term relationship this past July.  Before this final break up, I was stuck in this on again- off again whirlwind of a relationship.  I spent seven years devoted to this rescue project, who did not acknowledge my own value to invest the same.  It was a living nightmare.  The sad part of this whole fiasco was every Christmas I would do the absolute most to convince him that I was “it.”  It was as if in my mind the magic of Christmas would cure our toxic relationship.  Slowly but surely, I awakened to myself, and now I am convinced that I deserve better.

Ladies and gents, this is the first Christmas in a long time that I am truly single.  I mean single-single.  I am single in my mind, heart, body, I belong to God and me alone.  Christmas is not my favorite holiday because of whose attached to me (contrary to Hallmark Channel’s popular belief), neither does this holiday bring me joy because of who is sitting at my dinner table.  Christmas is my favorite holiday because its the day God in goodness full of love gave the world a gift that was too good for it:  His Son.  He loved me enough to give me a piece of himself. And if the Creator gave himself so freely, why on earth should I have to beg someone to love me well?  I don’t.  Point, blank, periodt!

Friends, it took me seven years to learn that I deserved better.  Seven long, teary-eyed, exhausting years.  Now that I recognize my worth, I’m not begging anyone else to.  I know that I’m beautiful,  I know that I’m dope, I know that I’m wife material.  I understand that I am God’s gift to humanity, that I’ve been fashioned in gentleness and grace, that my class and elevated thinking is one to die for.  I know who I am.  And this awareness of me has shifted my whole approach to relationships.  Friends, know thyself!  Recognize the goodness that lies within you and refuse to beg anyone else to see what’s inside- especially someone with no vision, no goals, no ambition and a little to no future.

Be too proud of yourself to beg!



Happy Christmas

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Happy Holidays!  I wish you all an amazing Christmas season, filled with joy and love.  I know that for some of you all, Christmas is a hard time. It’s a time when you’re reminded of loss of family, your status of singleness, and just the fact that you are spending this time alone.  But, be of good cheer!  You have a whole family, here, ready to love you and encourage you throughout this time.

Once upon a time, I used to dread the holidays; but then I realized that I am so blessed. I have an amazing family who loves me for me, wonderful friends and I am living my dream.  So, I would like to encourage each of you to find the blessings in your lives, the little miracles that holds an eternal smile on your faces.  I believe that God works all around us to remind us that we have so much more than what we think.  We have Him, friends, roofs over our heads, clean water and we live (well some of us) in a country that affords us amazing freedoms.  I am truly blessed and even though I may not have a significant other or a spouse, I am not alone because God is with me.  One of my favorite verses to dwell on during the holidays is Matt. 28:20 b, which says “… And lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.”  We are never alone.  May you find comfort in this verse and realize that He is all around you with his arms open wide- ready to love you well.

I believe that Christmas is not about gifts and material things but about loving others well. I believe that Christmas is about spreading joy and sharing the greatest gift of Christ with the world. For it is my belief, that the day this sweet baby boy came to the world- the world was changed forever.  Jesus came to change the world.  He came to bring hope and to bring love to the outsiders.  He came to bring joy to the depressed, to rescue those who were hanging on by a wing and a prayer.  He came for broken people, for those that people gave up on, for those that were deemed to be unlovable.  Jesus came for you and me and it was with compassion and love that he entered into our world ready to give up everything for us.  He loves us well and during this season, may we share his love with others and love well.

Anyways…family, I love each and everyone of you.  Thank you guys for sticking with me over the  years.  Thank you for reading my posts, thank you for your comments, thank you for investing in me as I seek to pour into each and every one of you.  You guys have loved me well over these past few years and for that I am so grateful!  Thank you for being my family during some of the hardest seasons of my life and  I pray that God will pour His  love out on each and every one of you.  You guys have loved me well and I seek  to continue to love each and every one of you. MERRY CHRISTMAS FAMILY!!!! 

Until next time,



Merry Christmas!

Hello Authentic Lovers

I hope that you have a fantastic day celebrating the birth of Christ.  I love Christmas songs, but my ultimate favorite tune to sing is ” The Christmas Song” by Nat King Cole.  What is your favorite Christmas song? Feel free to share that song with me below!  I pray that this Christmas is the best one yet 🙂

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Love Gives

“This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life.” (John 3:16 MSG) 

Hello Authentic Lovers

Christmas is the most celebrated holiday, aside from Halloween- there is something special about the spirit of the Holidays.  It is as if people are nicer around Christmastime.  I don’t know if its the carols of good cheer, or the emphasis on tasty desserts or if its just the idea that someone is going to do something nice for you for a day; all I know is that Christmas can bring the best and worst out of individuals.  I love Christmas, it is my favorite holiday aside from my birthday.  I love singing the songs, decorating the tree, baking cookies and just the sheer joy that comes around the holidays…but like others I can get caught up in things that don’t matter around the holidays: money and things.  We have all been guilty of being caught up in material things around the holidays, desiring the next big thing and forgetting an attitude of gratitude.

But…does this make giving gifts bad?  I say: absolutely not!  The first demonstration of true love, came in the form of a gift- the gift of the Son of God.  This is why I believe that gift giving is most appropriate for this holiday.  Over 2000 years ago, God gave us something so dear to His heart- He gave us His son (only son).  Can you imagine giving someone your child?  Your only child?  I can imagine the Father’s heart being bittersweet; sad knowing that He would be separated from His child for a season, but after remembering the purpose being filled with joy.  Jesus was given to us so that we can have real life, life that is never ending or limited by the trials of this world.

In the next three days, your hands will be filled with gifts of the newest technology, clothes and accessories, and possibly a pair of socks but the greatest gift you will have the chance to receive is the Jesus Christ, the son of God.  God himself has given you His Son, nothing else compares to that.

I know that some of you aren’t believers or profess any salvation/relationship with God but I just want to let you know that the epitome of love was a gift, the gift of Jesus Christ.  Anyone can have this gift and when you accept Him – you’ll live, truly live.  If you would like to accept Jesus, all you have to do is talk to Him and tell Him that you want Him to live in your heart forever and He will.  Anyone can belong to the family of God.  After you invite Him into your heart, find a group of people you can journey with ( we were never created to live this life alone- we were created for community) and take time to learn more about Him.  Sometimes we can open a Bible and it seems dense, so I encourage you to read in a version that you can understand.  Jesus has a friend that He gives you with Himself called the Holy Spirit, receive Him too because He is going to help you experience this life in a deeper way.  Every year we acknowledge the gift of Jesus, but this year let’s open Him up and experience our lives with Him.  

Always remember: love gives….

Until next time and Happy Holidays,

❤ Mo

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New Traditions

Hello Authentic Lovers!

It’s so good to share with you guys again. I’ve been kind of busy and uninspired so I haven’t written in a little while, but it’s good to be back.

Let’s see….life has been a complete whirlwind.  I am preparing for the holiday madness and realized that this year is going to be so different.  Ever since senior year of high school, I have worked for a bakery during the holiday season but this year I am not working for the bakery.  Over the years, the bakery became ingrained into my Christmas traditions. It was as if work and Christmas was created to coincide.  However, this year I am working for a law firm, so I have a holiday party to attend and then I am pretty much on my own for the holidays.  I’ll spend time with family but I will not experience the stressful, fun, exhilaration that comes with working with food and people.

To tell you the truth…I kind of miss my old bakery job.  I know that I am an adult now and should have a grown up job that pays more than minimum wage, which I do – it’s just that the bakery was my happy place.  It was the place that for a few days a week, I got to experience joy with some amazing people.  I love talking to people and my job now is not a “joking/laid back customer service type” job but rather serious (very serious 😦 ).  Even though I complained every year, I loved working Christmas at the bakery.  I don’t know if it was the smell of fresh bread as I walked into the door or the crappy Christmas music on Musak or just the love that the staff had for each other…either way I loved spending the holidays there.  

The thing about life is that it keeps moving forward, time waits for no one to continue and as I ponder Christmas and my bakery days : I am reminded of that lovely fact- time waits for no one.  So this year, I’ll make new traditions.  Instead of dancing while I bag bread to Christmas Pop, I’ll spend some days relaxing and shopping for Christmas.  Instead of oiling a kneading table, I’ll set the table in my house for our annual Christmas Eve party.  I always worked Christmas Eve, so it’s going to be nice to be on time for my own party for a change.lol.  I’ll make new traditions with my family and friends…especially since this is my last Christmas in my hometown.  This will be the last time, I’ll be able to drop everything to be with family for the holidays.  Next year, I’ll have to plan ahead and make sure my flight is squared away to be back home for the holidays…new traditions.

But there is one thing that I do not want to replace…..I do not want to replace this sweet nostalgia that overcomes me when I think about the one I love and how I got the opportunity to spend the holidays with him.  Even though we are apart, separated by time and space- all I have to do is walk into the bakery and sweet memories fill my heart.  It is as if time had stood still waiting for me to return to that moment.  Christmas at the bakery was a gift because I knew that I was going to spend a few lovely hours in his presence, he was my Christmas gift.  I miss him, I miss his presence and no new tradition or move to another state is ever going to change that.   

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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