Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-
I love to write. I love to write poems, short stories, and songs… I love to write songs. I’ve been writing songs since I was a little girl, lyrics would pour out of me like oil. I have journals filled with songs, napkins with songs lyrics, old tattered legal pad pages of songs. For a season in my life, the only consistent thing was the lyrics coming to my head, but then one day the words stopped coming. It was like my creative faucet was jammed and the before you knew it, I gave up writing- I stopped hearing the melodies. Isn’t it crazy to solidify one’s identity on a single season? That is exactly what I did, because of what I deemed an insufficiency, I no longer identified myself as a songwriter…
We don’t stop being who we are because of what we momentary lack.
God never said “Simone, you are no longer a writer. Let that go!” In fact, He encouraged me to write more. He desired that I wrote beyond my pain, beyond my disbelief in self, beyond my shame and insecurities. He called me Simone, his daughter, his writer, his creator and his advocate.
I was in my bedroom last night, singing my heart out to the Father when lyrics of hope began to leap off of my lips. “You silence my fears, You still my heart, you calm the depths of my mind.” Words of healing filled my room and for once I wasn’t trying to write a song, I was just acting as myself: a songwriter.
When you are who you are, you don’t have to try so hard.
Who are you? What pieces of your identity have you given up out of frustration? When God calls you by name: your name doesn’t change based upon circumstance. Though you are in the middle of trials, your name and the essence of you remain the same. When God called Joseph ruler, he was a ruler though he was falsely imprisoned. When God called Moses deliverer, he was a deliverer though he shied away because of insecurity. When God called Abraham friend, he was still His friend even after he lied about his wife being his sister. The names of our heroes remained the same, though life circumstances around them were filled with change. Lastly, let’s look at David: God’s songwriter and king but for a season of life he was on the run as a fugitive trying to survive.
Circumstances will change, but your name will remain the same.
You are a son or a daughter of God. That is the bedrock of your identity. Everything else is an additive to something amazing: you. So, creator, create. Writer, write. Teacher, teach. Lover, love well. Be who you are and never disown pieces of self because of hardship!