What If We Were Honest?

Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-

*disclaimer: today’s post is about a touchy subject.  Read, enjoy, ponder and engage with these thoughts. *

“What If We Were Honest?” this was the title of a great record by Francesca Battistelli, and these words are one that rings in my heart today.  Honesty.  It sounds nice and all, but I believe that we as a society have found comfort in dishonesty, in the rat race of pretend.  I mean who wants to be honest?  Really honest? Gut-wrenching honest?  No one.  No one wants to admit their failures or to relish in their inadequacies.  No, we as a people rather “fake it till we make it”.  We rather front, making ourselves bigger than what we are: seeking validation for our charade.   But what if, for a moment, we were truly honest?  Honest with ourselves, honest with each other and honest with God.

I believe that honesty is the doorway of freedom.  We will never be free or experience inner healing until we are honest.  There is no greater shackle than the chain of a  secret.  For centuries, especially in the African American community, we held each other hostage to secrets.  Secrets of rape and molestation, secrets of incest, secrets of mental illness, secrets of criminal activity, secrets of children born out of wedlock, secret families and secret affairs.  We’ve caged ourselves in by our secrets, silently triggered by things no one else but our oppressors knows.  Some of our oppressors have gone to the grave, yet we are still carrying the shame as if they are alive- bound by a secret.   To omit part of the truth is to not tell the truth at all.  God is aware of all of these things, memories and secrets we carry in our hearts.  We don’t have to pretend to have it all together, we don’t have to pretend to have all the answers, we don’t have to pretend to be whole but we can share these concerns with our Father so that he can heal us.

The more I confess,  the more I share, the more transparent I live – the freer I am!

What would our world look like if we were honest?

Xoxo,

Simone

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Giddy

Paused but for a moment an unusual excitement takes over me….

I don’t understand  it’s just a picture – how could this be?

Though miles apart, our hearts are woven together.

I better…be careful, I feel in over my head yet I dread

spending another second separated from you.

Whoo… I feel giddy.

Not overwhelmed, yet slightly overtaken.

Not anxious, yet extremely nervous- cheesy smiles consume my lips

and your name is on my tongue, maybe I was wrong to think that the love I had

for you doesn’t exist anymore I don’t know my brain is moving really quick and I feel

a ramble coming on, OMG, OMG…there you are!  In…picture form,

yet your smile has this magical way of overtaking me, making me all warm and

fuzzy.

I’m just a little giddy,

a little silly

while in love with you.

©Simone Holloway, 2017

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Random Ramblings of a 21 Year Old Girl

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

I’ve been procrastinating all day about what I wanted to blog about but I decided that instead of planning something, I would just write out of a stream of consciousness,  That’s right, whatever comes up is coming out on this digital page to be shared with each and every one of you. lol.  So I’ve been thinking about a few things that I thought I would share.

Here are a few of my ramblings:

(1) I don’t really understand why people read my writing, really I don’t understand. Like why would anyone choose to hear what I have to say?  I know that sounds self-deprecating and I promise I’m not fishing for some compliments but sometimes I’m like why would I read my blogpost, you know? I  was never the best writer.  I remember being in school and doing awful on my English papers because my grammar was never the best.  I always felt like people never got me as a person, they never understood me or what I was trying to say.  So to see that people are actually reading my thoughts…simply dumbfound me and makes me wonder.

(2) I cry every time I hear Christina Perri’s “Thousand Years”.  Every single time, and I don’t even know why,  It’s like on cue- when I hear the song, the waterworks come.  Crazy, huh? I’m watching “The Voice” and this guy starts singing “Thousand Years” and I almost loose it. lol. Like, full emotional breakdown…I think I need therapy.lol.

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(3) I’m going to the Bahamas in April and I can’t go until I don’t look like a swollen mess in my bathing suit.  When my mom told  the family that we were going to the Bahamas, everyone was like “Yeah…Bahamas..sweet!”, I was like “OMG I have to lose weight to look good in the Bahamas.” Shallow? Maybe, but absolutely true moment!

(4) My next date needs to be at an actual restaurant.  You know, the places where you have to sit down and look at a menu?  A place where its customary to leave a tip?  Like…an actual restaurant!  Don’t get me wrong, I love the spontaneous picnics and home-cooked meals, and trust me I love coffee dates and festivals- but I would actually like to sit down and enjoy a meal that neither one of us made together.  I’m just saying!  A dinner date is long overdue 🙂

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and finally because I could go on all night…

(5) So I was watching Dancing with the Stars and decided to tweet as I was watching…man, folks can be mean where it involves their favorite TV programming.  I was trying to be nice but honest and thought I was mean, but after looking at some of these comments- I had not even scratched the surface. I think it’s so funny how easy it is to hide behind one’s social media and forget the the people we talk about has feelings too.  Celebrities have feelings too, so let’s be kind on our social media.

So those are my ramblings for the night…I’m pretty exhausted and we’ll talk soon. If you have any random thoughts you would like to share with me, please comment below!  

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Random Things

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

It’s been a while since we’ve spoken and I thought that we would talk about random things.  Sometimes things happen in our lives randomly, outside of our control.  We fall in love, we fall out of love… We start relationships, we end relationships… we meet people of our past and some of them become apart of our future; everything happens randomly- outside of our control.  That’s why I say live life going with the flow- embrace the random things that come because some of the most random things that happen are some of the best!  

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

I’m Proud of You

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

The best words we can hear from anyone in our lives are “I’m so proud of you!”.  These words fill us up and makes us feel good on the inside.  My dad has a tendency to say these words to me randomly, in the spur of the moment.  I used to brush these moments aside as if they were nothing but as I got older I came to realize the significance of these tender moments with him.  My dad is very affectionate and loving but he doesn’t say a whole lot.  He is a man of few words- so when he sits you down and tells you how much he loves and appreciates you, this is a big deal!  He always looks me in the eyes and say “Baby girl, I’m proud of you!  I’m proud of the young woman you have become.”  These words bring such joy to my heart and they encourage me to continue living life the way that I do.  So today, I decided that I would like to share that same joy with you.   So, I repeat to you the same words spoken by my father to me- “I’m proud of you!  I’m proud of the woman/man that you have become.” I hope that your heart is warmed with the knowledge that someone believes in you and thinks highly of the life that you choose to live.  I love you guys and hope you guys have a great rest of your day!!!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

P.S.  Even if no one else believes in you, I believe.  Even if your dad has nothing positive to say to you, I speak positive things into your life.  Even if your family doesn’t think highly of you, I think highly of you- so does God and His opinion trumps the opinions of others.  Be encouraged and hang in there!  

Just One Of Those Days…

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

I didn’t think I was going to get a chance to blog today since I got sick, like randomly sick.  I was fine until 3 o’clock and then BAM!!! My body started spazzing out; headaches, stomach-aches, toothaches- you name it, I dealt with it!  I think days like this is just apart of the package deal we call life.  SO this evening, let’s talk about response– how do we deal with certain issues?  Like, random body sickness? I am a firm believer that it’s how we respond to our circumstances that matter, everything else- not so much. 

I have learned this summer that life will throw us curve-balls, we will have our ups and downs, and sometimes we will be faced with random circumstances where we will have to give an immediate response.  I have learned that it is wiser to be silent and think before speaking then to rush into an endless emotionally charged rambling.  I have also learned that I can change a situation through my response to that situation.  For example, say I face a confrontation on my job and my coworker decided to give me a “verbal lashing” today- I can (a) return the favor ( use some choice words… 😉 ), (b) walk away, think and then speak (maybe a good choice), or (c) take the lashing and harbor resentment towards her( I will have my revenge – *dramatic* voice).  I am a firm believer that some things should not be swept under the rug- some things should be addressed in a civil/mature manner.  Our responses to situations matter.  

James 1:19 says,  “My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,”  Sometimes we act out of character because we are angry in the moment or because we feel the need to respond and defend ourselves in that moment.  This shouldn’t be the case.  Our character should not be compromised because of our responses- we are bigger than momentary anger, we can rise above our peers.  

Sometimes, we have to make the most of what we’ve been given.  Sometimes, we have to be positive even when things are super bad.  Sometimes, we even have to smile when all we really want to do is cry- our response to situations makes us stronger individuals and solidifies our character.  So even if you was like me today and had “just one of those days”, keep you head up and realize that your day can be better.  You can have a great day, no matter what- just make sure you watch the way you respond to certain situations.  

Please pray my strength, and hopefully I’ll be in tip-top shape in the morning.

Until next time, 

Mo ❤

P.S. I got a job interview with a law firm in the morning- please send your prayers my way.  Love ya’ll

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