“But How?” my hearts screams out. “How can we return to a place I never got to. I almost got there, I thought I was there but I failed… I never got there.” In love, He grabs my hand and whispers, “Your only failure would have been to marry someone who was never designed to love you. To procreate with someone who did not have the capacity to be a father and to enter into a business partnership with someone with no integrity. Babygirl, you did not fail. You succeeded! For you chose your future over your present and you chose what was hard over what was easy. You said Yes even though the cost was your heart. You, my dear, can return to this place…” ©Simone Holloway, 2019
Tag: relationships
Phone Calls
“I realized that I shied away from connection because it allowed people to see me. And I mean see me: in rawness, brokenness and undone. Yet, it is this baring of oneself that builds intimacy and connection. If you cannot see me fully, then you cannot know me and you cannot love me.”©Simone Holloway, 2019
Trust Issues
Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers, My name is Simone and I have trust issues. Yep, it’s true – I have a hard time with trust. I thought this journey of becoming was going to be easy. I shouted on the promise that year 26 was going to be the year of eradicating…
Open.
“So, here I am completely open and vulnerable and just plain scared but willing. I am willing to be open, I am willing to be loved. “©Simone Holloway, 2019
I Got It Wrong
“To be unafraid is to be truly in love.”©Simone Holloway, 2019
DeActivated
Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- There is nothing more exhausting than living a life of comparison. Nothing. I didn’t realize how much of a comparison-driven life I was living until I saw how much time I consumed reflecting on the adventures of others through social media. To be connected to so many,…
Misplaced Expectations.
“If we’re honest, our anger is with ourselves. We’re disappointed that we placed faith and trust in someone that we thought could do no wrong, but they did. Problem is: we’re all human, liable to make mistakes.” (c) Simone Holloway, 2018
I Am Too Proud To Beg
“Christmas is my favorite holiday because its the day God in goodness full of love gave the world a gift that was too good for it: His Son. He loved me enough to give me a piece of himself. And if the Creator gave himself so freely, why on earth should I have to beg someone to love me well? I don’t. Point, blank, periodt!” ©Simone Holloway, 2018
Holiday Anxiety
” I don’t know about you all, but I feel like we live in a world where we are always asked to supply answers to questions that we simply don’t have the answer to. For example, “How long will you be single?”; “When are you going to have some kids?”; “Girl, why you ain’t got a boyfriend?; “Girl, when are you getting married?” In my heart I want to scream, “I DON’T KNOW, DO I LOOK LIKE GOD?” but on the outside, I smile gracefully and say, “I don’t know. I’ll let you know when I find out.” I’m not going to let them know… I’m going to make all my announcements after the fact on social media. My family will find out about my life choices when the world finds out. Trifling? Yeah, I know. “
I Refuse To Remember
“I don’t remember becoming this brave,
yet here I am. /Again, I realize that I made the right choice-/life changed the moment I chose me.” ©Simone Holloway, 2018
Authentic Love: God, Relationships, and Life 