Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-
Happy pre-holiday season, with Thanksgiving approaching in the next few days, some of you may be feeling the what I describe as “holiday anxiety.” It’s this dreading feeling that comes when you know you have to be surrounded by family and answer a bunch of aggravating questions. As a newly single walking embodiment of awesomeness, I hate all of the aggravating questions that come with being seated at the family dinner table. I don’t know about you all, but I feel like we live in a world where we are always asked to supply answers to questions that we simply don’t have the answer to. For example, “How long will you be single?”; “When are you going to have some kids?”; “Girl, why you ain’t got a boyfriend?; “Girl, when are you getting married?” In my heart I want to scream, “I DON’T KNOW, DO I LOOK LIKE GOD?” but on the outside, I smile gracefully and say, “I don’t know. I’ll let you know when I find out.” I’m not going to let them know… I’m going to make all my announcements after the fact on social media. My family will find out about my life choices when the world finds out. Trifling? Yeah, I know.
Ladies and Gents, If you’re like me, I feel your pain and I understand your holiday anxiety. But more so, I sense the temptation to return to my past due to my own loneliness. It’s like Lord, you separated me from what I was in before but because of my own desires to be held and to be in a relationship, I feel tempted to return back to that which you’ve set me free from. I believe that many of you are facing the same temptation, the temptation to return back to your past. This overwhelming temptation to settle for what you’ve been freed from out of convenience and loneliness. This, I believe is the reason many of us have found ourselves at a crossroads: Do we return to what the Lord asked us to leave? Or, do we wait for what He promised? I had a choice, return back to my ex so I can finally have an “answer” pleasing to men or to wait for what the Lord promised which is better!
Anyways, I can’t tell you all how to live your life. All I’ll say is do not forfeit your future for the temporary conveniences of today. So, here I go approaching this awkward time with boldness and depth reminding myself of the truth: I’m happy, I’m content, and I’m waiting and that my dears will have to be enough.