“I have decided that I am in this thing with the Lord forever. I’ve come to the place where I love things and people but I don’t love anything or anymore than the Lord. I love God more than my career. I love God more than the boy who has my heart. I love God more than my friends. I love God more than my family. I love God more and at any moment if he asks me to sacrifice it all, I am willing to walk away from it all. I don’t worship people and things, for the Lord alone is worthy of all my love, trust, and worship. “©Simone Holloway, 2020.
“I bet the prince of Egypt never imagined living a life as a fugitive in Midian, but here he was reimagining all he dreamed. Yet, God being so gracious used curiosity to grab his attention for a meeting. God wanted to spend that time with him, the same way he desired to spend time with me.” ©Simone Holloway, 2019
Y’all, I have no idea what this life of no shame will bring but I’m excited. I feel free, like in the depths of my soul. I feel like I can conquer the world. I feel strong and full of life in the inner chambers of my heart. I feel brave. It takes bravery to move into the unknown out of fear into love, out of being guarded to being open, out of holding things into being extremely honest. I am okay with where I am and that is freedom all in itself. I’ve embraced the truth about me and I am unashamed. I’ve embraced my triumphs and my failures, every ounce of my brokenness and the places where I am whole, all of my strengths and all of my weaknesses. I’m okay with every ounce of me and I am enough because I am in Him. I’m literally smiling as I type this article, overjoyed at the process He is doing in my heart. ©Simone Holloway, 2019
“But How?” my hearts screams out. “How can we return to a place I never got to. I almost got there, I thought I was there but I failed… I never got there.” In love, He grabs my hand and whispers, “Your only failure would have been to marry someone who was never designed to love you. To procreate with someone who did not have the capacity to be a father and to enter into a business partnership with someone with no integrity. Babygirl, you did not fail. You succeeded! For you chose your future over your present and you chose what was hard over what was easy. You said Yes even though the cost was your heart. You, my dear, can return to this place…” ©Simone Holloway, 2019
“I thought I trusted God. I did. I thought I understood His love for me, this notion that because He loves me He wouldn’t leave me without. Yet, my heart became increasingly full of fear and anxiety wrapped me in a bear hug as to say “Welcome Home!” Even in the midst of my perceived weakness, He never changed. He loved me with a steadfast love.” ©Simone Holloway, 2018
” I don’t know about you all, but I feel like we live in a world where we are always asked to supply answers to questions that we simply don’t have the answer to. For example, “How long will you be single?”; “When are you going to have some kids?”; “Girl, why you ain’t got a boyfriend?; “Girl, when are you getting married?” In my heart I want to scream, “I DON’T KNOW, DO I LOOK LIKE GOD?” but on the outside, I smile gracefully and say, “I don’t know. I’ll let you know when I find out.” I’m not going to let them know… I’m going to make all my announcements after the fact on social media. My family will find out about my life choices when the world finds out. Trifling? Yeah, I know. “
Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers– I bet many of you are looking at the title of today’s blog and you’re like “What???” But what many of you do not know, is that a piece of me died today. Yep, a portion of myself that held me back, that kept me stuck in…