Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-
Happy Friday! Have you ever been so full of clarity that you’ve sat and thought about life? Maybe it’s just me: but after I have a moment with God, sometimes I just sit in my room in silence and ponder what I just experienced. Last night was one of those nights. I was recovering from experiencing a sermon by the GOAT Dr. Matthew Stevenson III, and I just happened to be wired at 1:45 in the morning. I was up UP. Anyways, I sat and heard this song by TenthAvenueNorth called “No Shame.” and my life was changed forever. I found the theme song for my season/life. There is a freedom that comes with living and expressing truth, free of shame.
During my time in Greenville, each day God has been pulling back layers of fear- asking me to confront my heart issues and removing all kinds of weight including the weight of shame. When you’re in this place of vulnerability, it’s easy to think man, what will “so and so think” but that doesn’t matter. God has taught me that the fearless live in truth and where there is the truth, there is no need to be ashamed. I’ve lived bound under the realm of shame for so long, not sharing my truth- not addressing things with others, belittling my call or purpose, but now that shame has been dissipated with perfect love I’m good. I turned the song all the way up and began to sing to the top of my lungs. Before you knew it I was dancing in my kitchen celebrating freedom.
Where there is grace, there is no shame and where there is love, there is no fear.
Y’all, I have no idea what this life of no shame will bring but I’m excited. I feel free, like in the depths of my soul. I feel like I can conquer the world. I feel strong and full of life in the inner chambers of my heart. I feel brave. It takes bravery to move into the unknown out of fear into love, out of being guarded to being open, out of holding things into being extremely honest. I am okay with where I am and that is freedom all in itself. I’ve embraced the truth about me and I am unashamed. I’ve embraced my triumphs and my failures, every ounce of my brokenness and the places where I am whole, all of my strengths and all of my weaknesses. I’m okay with every ounce of me and I am enough because I am in Him. I’m literally smiling as I type this article, overjoyed at the process He is doing in my heart.
I am happy with my process. I rejoice at my journey. I’m content with my story.
Family, this is what a life of no shame looks like: it’s singing and dancing at 2 o’clock in the morning with no fear, with no shame. It’s trusting for provision when it seems like all hope is lost. It’s being unfazed with bad news because you know in your soul that He’s working all things for good. It’s loving others beyond their capacity to love you. It’s forgiving even when you don’t want to. It’s having hard conversations, dealing with the hard relational issues, and making hard decisions for your next. It’s going beyond opinions of others, beyond even your opinion of yourself, feeling fear but doing it anyway. It’s riding the tallest rollercoaster, swimming in the deepest oceans, and taking road trips on faith. It’s relocating because God said to, and finding that you have a home waiting for you. It’s being light, weight free and full because those that place their trust in Him will never be put to shame. Trust not only eradicates fear but for me it eradicated shame.
I’m living with no shame!
P.S. Check out TenthAvenueNorth’s song “No Shame”. It’s available on all streaming platforms!