No Shame

Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers- 

Happy Friday!  Have you ever been so full of clarity that you’ve sat and thought about life?  Maybe it’s just me:  but after I have a moment with God, sometimes I just sit in my room in silence and ponder what I just experienced.  Last night was one of those nights. I was recovering from experiencing a sermon by the GOAT Dr. Matthew Stevenson III, and I just happened to be wired at 1:45 in the morning.  I was up UP.  Anyways, I sat and heard this song by TenthAvenueNorth called “No Shame.”  and my life was changed forever.  I found the theme song for my season/life.  There is a freedom that comes with living and expressing truth, free of shame.

During my time in Greenville, each day God has been pulling back layers of fear- asking me to confront my heart issues and removing all kinds of weight including the weight of shame.  When you’re in this place of vulnerability, it’s easy to think man, what will “so and so think” but that doesn’t matter. God has taught me that the fearless live in truth and where there is the truth, there is no need to be ashamed.  I’ve lived bound under the realm of shame for so long, not sharing my truth- not addressing things with others, belittling my call or purpose, but now that shame has been dissipated with perfect love I’m good.  I turned the song all the way up and began to sing to the top of my lungs.  Before you knew it I was dancing in my kitchen celebrating freedom.

Where there is grace, there is no shame and where there is love, there is no fear.

Y’all, I have no idea what this life of no shame will bring but I’m excited.  I feel free, like in the depths of my soul.  I feel like I can conquer the world.  I feel strong and full of life in the inner chambers of my heart.  I feel brave.  It takes bravery to move into the unknown out of fear into love, out of being guarded to being open, out of holding things into being extremely honest.  I am okay with where I am and that is freedom all in itself.  I’ve embraced the truth about me and I am unashamed.  I’ve embraced my triumphs and my failures, every ounce of my brokenness and the places where I am whole, all of my strengths and all of my weaknesses.  I’m okay with every ounce of me and I am enough because I am in Him.  I’m literally smiling as I type this article, overjoyed at the process He is doing in my heart.

I am happy with my process.  I rejoice at my journey.  I’m content with my story.

Family, this is what a life of no shame looks like: it’s singing and dancing at 2 o’clock in the morning with no fear, with no shame.  It’s trusting for provision when it seems like all hope is lost.  It’s being unfazed with bad news because you know in your soul that He’s working all things for good.  It’s loving others beyond their capacity to love you.  It’s forgiving even when you don’t want to.  It’s having hard conversations, dealing with the hard relational issues, and making hard decisions for your next.  It’s going beyond opinions of others, beyond even your opinion of yourself, feeling fear but doing it anyway.  It’s riding the tallest rollercoaster, swimming in the deepest oceans, and taking road trips on faith. It’s relocating because God said to, and finding that you have a home waiting for you.  It’s being light, weight free and full because those that place their trust in Him will never be put to shame.  Trust not only eradicates fear but for me it eradicated shame. 

I’m living with no shame! 

Xoxo,

Simone

P.S. Check out TenthAvenueNorth’s song “No Shame”.  It’s available on all streaming platforms!

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In The Clouds

You know that moment when you almost loose yourself…
I lost myself, distracted in the company of another
but I felt the hand of God yank me back to reality-
Like, no girl- I didn’t make him for you.
I sense that yanking right now, pulling me out of fantasy developed in absence and back into the reality of waiting on you.
I chuckled to myself because I knew that this Holy repellent was working,
and there was no need for any searching because I already knew the answer…
You’re my John Smith and I’m your dark-skinned Poca
and this isn’t some Disney story line that’s been manipulated by a creative writer,
but a poem penned by a fighter who have fought for the chance at your heart.
Darling, I can’t remember the last time I penned your praises- or the last time I smiled because I knew I was where I was supposed to be.
Shhh… your secret is safe with me.
I held my tongue and I’ve zipped my lips,
but on the inside my heart is doing somersaults and flips- with pure joy and excitement of what’s to come.
You’re the one.
OMG! I can’t believe I just said that aloud
My heart is so proud to be claimed by you.
I’m so shy and I’m such a prude,
cheeks blushing at my confession-
heart pounding by this truth session,
that even a serum could not confuse.
I simply have nothing to lose-
by being completely free and transparent,
because it is apparent that I am totally and incandescently in love.
And why shouldn’t I be?
I spent so many years emotionally beaten-
beaten my the winds of rejection and insecurities.
Tossed by high winds and violent seas.
Spent so many years asking “why me?”
so many that I am physically exhausted by that question.
No longer accepting suggestions,
on how to live my life.
Torn by envy, dragged by strife- so now I’m in this good place,
in this good head space- I choose to celebrate,
what’s been placed into my hands.
I take a stand,
and I say “yes” to you.
No matter what, “I do.”
And it is with this conviction,
with this detailed attention –
that I give my all.
I’m no longer scared of the fall,
as I jump off this cliff.
I choose to allow my spirit to lift,
me into the clouds.
As I wait to hear the sound,
of your voice beckoning me.
Darling, I am free to be,
in you.

©Simone Holloway, 2016

Ocean Blues

Your ocean blues peering into me,
tossed like a ship at sea,
I am swept by you.
Like a sailboat expecting a sunny day,
I toss and I sway,
as you subconsciously beckon me near.
Calm and cool is what I appear,
to be,
But everything is not what it seems.
You have shaken me to the core.
More than what I could ever ask for,
is how I would describe you.
It’s true,
that once upon a time I thought I knew –
who had my heart.
But no work of art, can compare to this level of breath snatched from me.
I lose oxygen every time I see…
You.
Invigorating, Illuminating, Exhilarating,
YOU ARE.
A tide drawn by the moon,
A current pushed by the stars.
And as I descend in this watery tomb,
I place my hand into yours and say…
Hello.

©Simone Holloway, 2016

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not enough words…

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

There are not enough words to describe the last 24 hours experienced. Today has been an absolutely amazing day  and I’m left in this awkward, awe-inspiring, speechless phase where I’m so amazed at God to the point -I can’t even speak.  I’m at the point where I can’t even write because my heart is so full and my eyes are brimming with tears, marveling at the wonder of God and His goodness towards me. I have so much to share, so bear with me and we will dig through these precious life changing moments together. 

Until next time, 

Mo 🙂

Vacations, Birthdays and Gratitude

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

God is good!  That is my simple declaration for the day regardless of what it looks like, regardless of what it feels like- God is good.  I just got home from Orlando and it was wonderful!  I love vacations, birthdays, anniversaries; really any need for celebrations.  I love to celebrate.  I think that life has a way of sucking the life out of us, it has a way of taking our joy and stealing our peace.  Life has this dark, depressing way of ruining our dreams and reminding us of all of our failures.  This is why I love celebrations, because it’s God’s way of causing us to reflect on life with complete gratitude.  Yes, life may not be the best- but we are alive and therefore, God is good.  Yes, the struggle is real- but regardless, God is good.  Celebrations have a way of filling our hearts with gratitude.

My family and I vacationed in Orlando for my mother’s birthday. It was nice seeing my mom relax for a change.  Sometimes, ministry stresses us out and we need a little more grace to make it from day to day- just a little bit more.  I think my mom needed a little bit more grace and just a few days to get away from all of the responsibility that has been placed on her shoulders- so we went on vacation.  My mom was so carefree; I watched as she laughed more, smiled more, and just had an awesome time. Her happiness made me happy and I began to reflect on the goodness of God towards His people.

I think God has a way of slowing down time; a simple way for us to see the world around us.  He has a way of showing us that glimmer of light in the midst of darkness.  He shows us the light so that we may have hope, hope that everything though it may appear dark and dim will be alright.  He is light.  He is hope.  He is good.

So today, Happy Monday and please reflect on the goodness of God.  I know life is tough.  I know life can take you for a whirl.  I know life has this tendency to try your faith, but have hope in God.  Look for the light in the midst of the darkness and understand that there is always hope because He is good.  Today, be filled with gratitude and love for our Creator!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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You Are Loved

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Here is some mid-week inspiration.  I want to remind you guys that you are loved  by the Savior and by me as well.  Happy Hump Day and enjoy the rest of your week!

Yes, oh yeah

When I promised I’d be there
And told you I would always care
Well, I meant every word
And I know it’s hard to let me close
Those times that really hurts the most
I’m trying desperately to be heard

Though you try to push me away
I can feel your sorrow
You don’t have to be afraid

‘Cause you, you are loved, somebody told me to tell you
You’ve been waiting for someone to say
You are loved, so let your heart be encouraged
It’s gonna be okay, ’cause you are loved

No, you’re not alone, you’ve got a friend
To be by your side from the start till the end
And I will always be around for you
So whenever, you began to doubt
Oh, my love for you will show
Just how I’m faithful and that I remain true, oh yeah

No matter what life takes you through
You see I will be the one
That you can always come back to

‘Cause you, you are loved, somebody told me to tell you
You’ve been waiting for someone to say
You are loved, so let your heart be encouraged
It’s gonna be okay, ’cause you are loved

Believe within your heart from this moment on
There’s someone who loves you in a special way
No matter what you do, no matter what you say
Just remember this everyday

You are loved, somebody told me to tell you
You’ve been waiting for someone to say
You are loved, so let your heart be encouraged
It’s gonna be okay, you are

You are loved, somebody told me to tell you
You’ve been waiting for someone to say
You are loved, so let your heart be encouraged
It’s gonna be okay, you are loved
You are loved, yes, you are

Someone told me to tell you
You are loved
Someone told me to say
You are loved

Someone told, somebody told me to tell you
Someone told me to say, you are loved
You gotta believe, you are loved
Someone told me to tell you
Told me to say that you are loved

You are loved, you are loved
Somebody told me to tell you
You are loved, you are loved
You are loved, you are loved

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Butterflies

There’s something about butterflies

maybe it’s their transformation of beauty

that simply

takes my breath away….

Or maybe,

It’s the fact that when you’re around the one you love

it’s as if 1000 of them are inhabiting your inner being

allowing the one you are seeing

to glow with the beams of perfection

it’s a lovely manifestation

of love covering all faults.

Even now these little reflections

of the glory of God

are causing my heart to flutter at the sight of you…

the beating of their wings match the beating of my heart

and I watch as God paints this work of art

with His ring finger – twining the two

of us.

In a world full of heartache and lies,

darling you cause me to be filled with butterflies.

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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Overwhelming Joy

I hope for you a joy that is overwhelming 

life-giving

and satisfying.

A joy that plants a permanent smile 

on your lips.

A joy that flows down to your hips 

causing you to sway- 

enveloped in praise.

An overwhelming joy is my wish for you. 

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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Smiles

I desire that you smile

that you find reasons to smile

as much as possible…

I want you to smile so much- so that

your face reflects the joy experienced, in spending time with me…

I desire that you smile, radiating the beauty of all  your 32s-

so that the world may get a sneak peek of the light-

illuminating from your heart.

I hope that your smile causes another to lose all sense of control-

bursting into a grin of their own.

So that the light shining from its white welcome center, will draw

the broken, the hopeless and all of those in need of love.

In the midst of a chaotic world,

I pray that your life be filled with

smiles…

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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I Will Wait

Here is a poem by one of my favorite poets: Janette…Ikz called “I will wait for you”.  When I heard this piece, I caught myself relating to every lyric and understanding exactly what the poet was saying.  It was like Janette..Ikz wrote this piece for me.  So take a minute to dive in to one of my favorite pieces and enjoy!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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