Ocean Blues

Your ocean blues peering into me,
tossed like a ship at sea,
I am swept by you.
Like a sailboat expecting a sunny day,
I toss and I sway,
as you subconsciously beckon me near.
Calm and cool is what I appear,
to be,
But everything is not what it seems.
You have shaken me to the core.
More than what I could ever ask for,
is how I would describe you.
It’s true,
that once upon a time I thought I knew –
who had my heart.
But no work of art, can compare to this level of breath snatched from me.
I lose oxygen every time I see…
You.
Invigorating, Illuminating, Exhilarating,
YOU ARE.
A tide drawn by the moon,
A current pushed by the stars.
And as I descend in this watery tomb,
I place my hand into yours and say…
Hello.

©Simone Holloway, 2016

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Driving In The Sunset

Hello old followers, new friends, and fellow bloggers –

Hold up! That’s not right, it’s “Hello old bloggers, new followers and fellow friends-“; ummmmm…that is also incorrect.  Okay, here we go:

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

That’s it!   Family I am so stoked at this moment.  You see.. I GOT A NEW CAR!!!!    *eeeeppp* I know, you’re excited too!  I knew you would be, so I am so happy in this moment.  I think it’s crazy to pray for something for so long, and then what you pray for is there in front of you- it’s this amazing feeling .

You know fam, God is so good and He is so faithful to His word.  Even when we are not faithful, God is faithful and He truly keeps His promises.  One day, you’re going to look up and that thing you was praying for, would be right there in front of you.  I wish you guys the best day possible and if you’re day wasn’t super amazing – keep hope alive, because there is always a new day in tomorrow.

Stay encourage family, things are going to turn around- before you know it, you’ll be driving in the sunset!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Mourning

My dream died yesterday...
he drew his last breath
and I cried....and I cried....and I cried
my dream, my child, my love -died.
so I tried to get myself together
as shock took over me
but as I laid my dreams to rest, a little bit of me
was buried with him and I too died
I died on the inside
in the hollows of my heart, I passed away
and I saw her, my optimistic self at rest
in the casket with hope and belief
as I performed my own eulogy
I too need peace.
As she and he passed into eternity
so did I
yesterday was the day a little piece of me died.
©Simone Holloway, 2015

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Vacations, Birthdays and Gratitude

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

God is good!  That is my simple declaration for the day regardless of what it looks like, regardless of what it feels like- God is good.  I just got home from Orlando and it was wonderful!  I love vacations, birthdays, anniversaries; really any need for celebrations.  I love to celebrate.  I think that life has a way of sucking the life out of us, it has a way of taking our joy and stealing our peace.  Life has this dark, depressing way of ruining our dreams and reminding us of all of our failures.  This is why I love celebrations, because it’s God’s way of causing us to reflect on life with complete gratitude.  Yes, life may not be the best- but we are alive and therefore, God is good.  Yes, the struggle is real- but regardless, God is good.  Celebrations have a way of filling our hearts with gratitude.

My family and I vacationed in Orlando for my mother’s birthday. It was nice seeing my mom relax for a change.  Sometimes, ministry stresses us out and we need a little more grace to make it from day to day- just a little bit more.  I think my mom needed a little bit more grace and just a few days to get away from all of the responsibility that has been placed on her shoulders- so we went on vacation.  My mom was so carefree; I watched as she laughed more, smiled more, and just had an awesome time. Her happiness made me happy and I began to reflect on the goodness of God towards His people.

I think God has a way of slowing down time; a simple way for us to see the world around us.  He has a way of showing us that glimmer of light in the midst of darkness.  He shows us the light so that we may have hope, hope that everything though it may appear dark and dim will be alright.  He is light.  He is hope.  He is good.

So today, Happy Monday and please reflect on the goodness of God.  I know life is tough.  I know life can take you for a whirl.  I know life has this tendency to try your faith, but have hope in God.  Look for the light in the midst of the darkness and understand that there is always hope because He is good.  Today, be filled with gratitude and love for our Creator!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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He Think He Slick…

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

Hey y’all!  Today has been a great day, filled with peace and relaxation, but today as I was checking out the profiles of some of the those that follow me on Tumblr- I became upset by one of the pages I saw.  This person’s page looked like it was a Christian page, with a scripture here or there- but the images that came up were explicit perverse images.  I was HEATED  because as someone who was delivered from perversion, I hate it when I am surprised by perverse things.  I choose not to watch explicit scenes, I choose not to use bad language, I’ve changed and therefore I don’t invite perversion into my atmosphere or into my life.  As an individual on the road of purity; in my mind, actions and soul- I go to extremes to maintain my lifestyle in pursuit of pleasing God with my life.  SO I WAS HIGHLY HEATED…when my eyes saw some things that it shouldn’t have, HIGHLY HEATED….

But I think, I was more upset that this person pretended to be something that they weren’t.  They had this facade of purity but their blog didn’t reflect the mask that they wore.  I hate it when people pretend.  If you are dealing with perverse thoughts and you like to have sex and watch porn- then just admit it!  Don’t lie about it and pretend to be something that isn’t true.  I rather someone flat out tell me that they are bound to sin than to lie to me and that they aren’t.  That’s just me. When I was struggling with porn- I came out and told the truth and this honesty produced freedom in my life.

But you know what the Enemy think he slick… that after I ran into my accidental discovery that I was going to revert back to my past lifestyle.  That I was going to yearn and desire pornography.  That I was going to voluntarily make my bed in hell, but he’s stupid because I’m NEVER going back!!!! NEVER!!!!

I’ve made up in my mind that I was no longer living in a mindset of sneaking around, doing things that I wasn’t supposed to do because of some temporary thrill of pleasure.  A pleasure that left me empty, guilty and seeking to end my life.  I’m NEVER going back and right now y’all I am so mad at the enemy, I can’t stand his guts.

You know fam, he comes to steal, kill and destroy.  He comes to trick you back in to bondage and to throw away the key, but I am so happy that greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.  God is greater, He is bigger, He is more powerful than sin and the Enemy.  HE IS!!! 

Well…. I guess my rant is over, thought I would share my raw thoughts with you and I wanted to encourage you to be real.  I don’t care if you believe in God or if you don’t. I don’t care if you know “Christian” language or if you don’t.  I don’t care if you are church-ed or unchurch-ed.  All I care about is your authenticity, the realness of your soul.  So if you say you are a person of faith, be a person of faith.  If you say you love God, then love God. If say you live for Him, then live for Him.

Don’t pretend. Don’t make things up.  Don’t lie.  Be real!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Blessings in Disguise

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Today started a little….on the rough side.  So I got up and got dressed for work, left on time and everything- only to get there and not have a way in.  This seems to be a common theme with my place of work, I need a key but have been waiting on that for the longest.  Of course, I see that I got a text message saying I could come into work an hour later- while I am standing outside the door!  Slowly but surely, I felt the irritation rising as I looked at my mom who sat waiting in the car.  She had to go to school early today because of exams, so this little inconvenience not only affected me but her as well. If I was a lighter complexion, I think she would have seen the redness on my cheeks and the steam rising off of me.

A man’s heart deviseth his way, but the Lord directeth his steps. Proverbs 16:9

So I’m back home, because of unfortunate circumstance, missing a day of work because of the lack of responsibility.  I could do one of two things: wallow in irritation or change my perception of the situation.  Instead of thinking about today being a day of lost wages, I’ll see it as a free spa day: one where I lounge at home, wash my hair, do my nails and just relax! I start another job in the morning, and I need to be really rested for that position.

Today’s case of unfortunate events was just an avenue for a blessing in disguise.

Instead of work and stress, I will be accompanied by peace and relaxation today and I choose to view my day in a new light.  I am blessed, whether I am in the office or not.  I am blessed whether I am strutting in my heels or my house slippers.  I am still blessed.

SO like me, today may have started a little rough.  It may have been super extensive and annoying in the beginning but I bet if you look at your situation you can see the blessing just waiting to be acknowledged.  There is always a blessing in disguise.

P.S. Did I mention that I left my phone in my mom’s car :/ ….. Oh well. guess I am supposed to be unplugged today!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Am I The Next Victim?

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

I saw the news about Eric Harris’ death and my heart is saddened.  As a young black female, I always believed that the world was getting better.  That one day, people would see me for me and not because of my chocolate complexion.  I believe that in Christ, we are called to love others regardless of their race, gender, sexual orientation, etc.  WE are called to love.  So when I see individuals all around the world, get killed because of their skin or because pride in positions of authority- my heart becomes saddened.  How many people have to die before change comes?  How many people have to get away in our flawed justice system?  This epidemic of hatred is not targeted to men only, women my age are dying for no legitimate reason.  Women my age, because they look like me are victims to police brutality.  Women my age, because they look like me are subjected to a lifestyle of fear.  I sit and watch my News Feed blow up with the complaints of a people, whose anger could fuel something lethal for our society.  We are called to love!  We are called to care about others regardless of what they look like?  I just wished our justice system followed this simple rule of love as well.

I’m black.  I’m 22. I’m a woman.

Am I the next victim? 

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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A Good Friday Prayer Vigil

As we remember the death of our Lord Jesus Christ, I felt led by the Holy Spirit to take an hour that evening to pray for our brothers and sisters in the faith who are being persecuted. All around the world, men and women are being asked to deny their belief in exchange for their lives. Let’s come together as a body of believers and pray for these individuals and their families.

April 3, 2015 from 7- 8 PM EST

In order to join this prayer vigil, call 1-712-775-7031. The ID # 514134476.

Join me as our voices are raised to heaven on the behalf of those dear to us.

“The prayers of the righteous availeth much …” James 5:16

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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