God’s Opinion…

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Well… it’s Monday and let me tell you I took an “L” during class today.  Have you ever been asked a question and gave an obvious wrong answer but before you can stop yourself from talking- your mistaken speech has already left your mouth?  This happened to me in Civil Procedure today I could feel the stares of judgement on my back…like, I was so embarrassed.  One of the first thoughts that can to my mind was, “Girl!  Everyone must think you’re so stupid now!” “Like, you’re soooo stupid! Why did you say that???”  Shame and embarrassment began to settle on me.  We can’t change the perception of others, but we can change how we perceive ourselves…

As I sat in my seat, eyes adverted to the floor, the Lord asked me a question:

“Which opinion is more important to you: mine or theirs?”

I could feel His presence meet me in that classroom and He began to share his thoughts about me to me.  “I think you’re smart, I think you’re beautiful.  I think you’re capable of more than you’ve ever imagined.  I think you’re going to make a great attorney! I believe in you.”  His words lifted the shame and his peace began to settle my soul.  There’s this scripture that says, “Those that place their hope in Me will not be put to shame.” (Isaiah 49:23)  There is no shame in Him, and his opinion supersedes the opinions of others.

Well…I don’t know what you’ve been embarrassed about or what defeating thoughts you’ve entertained about yourself- but I challenge you to see yourself, the way God sees you!  I challenge you to think highly of yourself because your Creator thinks highly of you. His love consumes all of the fear, doubt, and shame that comes to overwhelm us. He believes in us, so let us believe in ourselves!

Until next time,

Simone

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You’ll Just Know

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

It’s been a while.  To say that I’ve been extremely busy would be an understatement.  The truth of the situation is I am working two different jobs to make some enough income to move for law school.  I feel like the more I work, the less trouble I get into and therefore my constant exhaustion is for my good and not detriment…. 😬.  Not really sure if anyone else would agree with that logic, but that is the truth concerning why it seems like I don’t blog as much as I used to.

Anyways…there was something that just dropped into my heart this morning in regards to relationships.  I think that for many of us, relationships have been a roller coaster ride of emotions dipped in confusion.  One day we are extremely happy and content and the next we are deeply unsatisfied for whatever the reason.  We get into these relationships with this sense of doubt, waiting for things to not to work out so we can begin the process with someone else.  I’ve lived my life like this…in constant confusion and anxiety regarding those who I have been involved romantically with.

So this morning, the Holy Spirit began to speak to me about one’s inner witness.  That voice within ourselves that tells us when things are right and when things are wrong.  We like to call this voice our conscience but in Christ, this voice of reason and truth is truly the Holy Spirit leading and guiding us into life.   He warns of bad decisions and urges us to take amazing opportunities for the glory of the Father.  If we listen hard enough, we can hear him saying when things are right and when they are wrong-when the relationship is right and when it’s wrong. I think the problem comes when we override Him and the red flags He shows us because we desire to fill this void of loneliness that is within.  SOOOOO… we allow our own insecurities and weaknesses to dictate how great a relationship is for us, rather than trusting the inner workings of the Holy Spirit and His ability to lead us into truth– it’s the nature of humanity and our constant belief that we can make decisions for ourselves separated from that inner witness.

This is why i speak to so many people who say “If only I listened to by gut…” “If only I acknowledged those signs that I saw in that individual…” “If only…” The thing about hindsight is that it’s 20/20 and that’s when we truly see life what it was and not for what we wanted it to be.  I learned through harsh breakups and broken hearts to follow the leadership of the Holy Spirit and to listen to His voice, confirming this inner witness that is within.

When you meet the person you should be in covenant with, you will just know.  You will….  People today don’t want to believe in love at first sight any more or that your heart and mind will come into agreement concerning love, but it will and this agreement that happens between these two realms of ourselves will confirm that inner witness within.  I’ve experienced that agreement and it’s life changing, to be in a place where there is no doubt that you and this person is just meant to be in this very moment- it’s liberating….

So today, I encourage you to listen to the Holy Spirit.  When He shows you that things aren’t right about your relationships, pay attention and act accordingly.  Don’t stay stuck in relationships because of what you want your relationship to be rather than what truly is. Be open to the truth and heed to that inner witness within you.  Listen to Him.

When you meet the “one” for you, you’ll just know!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Without Hesitation

Hello Authentic Lovers

How are you guys doing?  I’m doing well. Tired but well.  It’s cold and rainy on my side of town, making me want to go home and sleep even more.

So today I thought we would talk about hesitations. I know, it’s so exciting…hesitations 😉 A hesitation is “the action of pausing or hesitating before saying or doing something.” A synonym would be to doubt, or be filled with uncertainty.

I always marvel at the way we live our lives.  I always wondered why it is so much easier to doubt, and to be filled with unbelief then it is to live full of faith, regardless of what is pushed our way.  We never struggle to think negatively, or to think with doubt…but rather, we struggle with thinking positively and walking in faith.  The bad always seem easier than living in the pathway of good.

I know that I have lived a life full of hesitation, one where I pause to think about what’s to come and then talk myself out of doing something.  It’s like for a moment, I am fearless and I will attempt anything; but then I come to myself and I start to think about why I shouldn’t do something spontaneous…maybe even fun.  I’ve gotten better over the years, as I stopped people pleasing but hesitation is real and it comes to rob you of the joy in that moment.

Today, I challenge you to live without hesitation.   Without hesitation live in the moment (present) and enjoy what’s around you.  If you want to dance but you’re not a good dancer- dance anyway.   If you want to hum a tune but you don’t think you can sing, sing/hum anyway.  Stop worrying about how you’ll look and what others think.  Don’t even allow yourself to talk you out of happiness- be happy and live fearless.  Without hesitation love freely!

We’ll be walking this journey of fearlessness together, and to be honest: I am so excited! 

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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I Just Don’t Know

I used to have all the answers

About how I felt about you

But, now I’m speechless…

I just don’t know

I used to be so clear

Clear about you

But, now no words come….

I feel stuck in the middle

Of speech and silence

Of happiness and anger

Of certainty and doubt

I just don’t know

To hear that you dream of me

The same way I dream of you

To hear that you think of me

As much as I think of you

To hear that I’m in your heart

The same way you’re in mine

My mouth is vacuum-sealed shut

Afraid that if I open my mouth

Things will change

You’ll decide otherwise

Because for the first time in my life

I have to decide whether it’s right

To love you again

To keep you at arm’s length

To allow between us more distance

And to tell you the truth

I’m no longer confident

That if I follow my heart

It won’t lead me astray

My gut failed me before

When it gambled on you

So now what?

What should I do?

I just don’t know….

“(c) Simone Holloway, 2014”

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I Forgave You

Hello old friend, new followers, and fellow bloggers- 

Happy Sunday!  I don’t usually blog on Sundays because it’s my “Sabbath“- my day of rest but since I took last Thursday off, I thought I would blog this morning…

Have you ever held yourself to something you did years ago?

Have you ever done something repented and then repented again…for the same thing?

Have you ever doubted that you was truly forgiven?

I have.  Just yesterday, I did something I wasn’t supposed to and I prayed asking for forgiveness…then I prayed again asking for forgiveness about the same thing.  I probably asked to be forgiven like 20 times because I didn’t want any sin to separate me from God. Just in case, after prayer- I asked for forgiveness again.  The Holy Spirit whispered to me “I forgave you!“, I just needed to forgive myself.  I was forgiven the first time I whispered that prayer to the Father.  He forgave me the first time and He did not hold it against me.  I held my past sin against me, but God didn’t- He forgave me!

So today instead of dwelling on the past and repenting for things you have already sincerely said sorry for, choose to move forward.  Don’t return to your past sin- He already forgave you.  Move forward and stop living in the past.  Learn to forgive yourself– let bygones be bygones and strive to be a better person, strive to do good.  Enjoy church if you attend and just spend today in an atmosphere of worship for the Creator, the Savior and the Life-Giver, Jesus Christ

Until next time, 

Mo 🙂 

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