“The what-ifs are the worst and they come without permission.  They come without warning.  Like all terrible things with no mission but to distract,  the what-ifs always come.  They come and suck the life out of a person, leaving them drained of happiness, courage and grit.  I was contending against the possibilities of things taking a turn for the worse.  I was fighting against moments that did not happen, against that which was still unknown. “©Simone Holloway, 2020.