Where Do We Find Meaning?

Dear old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers

Happy Monday!  I hope you all are doing well and that you’re not deflating under the  Monday Blues.

Anyways, I believe that we live in a world where people crave for something meaningful.  We desire for our lives, relationships, careers to hold meaning and to reflect some type of value within our society.  Think about it, would you choose your job if that position held no meaning within society: whether that is power, prestige, honor, etc.  What about your perfect guy or girl?  Do the characteristics they possess hold any weight within our value system? Even think of the homes we reside in, are the aesthetics one of “esteem” held within our society fixated on beauty and volume.  What if for a moment, we found meaning in just being the person we were created to be?  Marrying the spouse duly suited for our life and love goals?  Living in the home that we perceive to be best for us?  Working the career that we are passionate about and that changes a majority of lives?

Isn’t that meaningful?

Society teaches us that meaning is in our possession, accomplishments, and assets.  God, however, teaches us that meaning is within Him and as we find ourselves within who He is, we automatically hold meaning, value, and worth within society.  This value and meaning hold regardless of our looks, career, education, home aesthetics, and relationships.  Our lives are meaningful because we are meaningful, just as we are.

Until next time,

Simone

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Rooftops

Looking out of the window, gazing at the rooftops…

Oh, how I wish I was up there, hands stretched towards the sky.

I can feel the sun beckoning me outside, but I’m trapped within circumstance.

Trapped with responsibility, captured by what appears to be easy.

And I, would love to run away and find myself on a rooftop with you.

Let’s admit it- we always see better then we’re a little higher.

Level one for me has expired,

and I desire something more than what I see.

I want to be free!

Free in deed and not just in words,

serenely taken by the beauty in you.

So, what will I do?

Nothing, I’ll wait…

for my time has not yet come.

©Simone Holloway, 2017.

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Under Pressure: Skills from a First-Class Procrastinaor

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

So… I was taught never to procrastinate…

However, I work best under pressure.  The higher the stakes, the more I tend to perform because I know that I might not get another shot to get it right.  That’s just me…. Now, do I defy the rules of today- maybe? But hey, if you’re not willing to risk anything how can you gain everything?  Poetry in it’s fullest from.

So I stopped for a brief moment to help y’all reflect on who you truly are.  When you know yourself, you know how your mind, body and soul works and you accommodate for those characteristics.  Let’s stop trying to reinvent the wheel.  Be you.  If you are not a morning person, don’t plan to jog at 6 am each morning.  If you don’t drink, don’t attend bars to look cool and “in.” If you’re not into hard rock and roll, don’t fake your way through a conversation about the Stones.  Be you and own who you are and would like to be.  Some people are planners, I once belonged to that community but as I grow older I long for things to be flexible and freeing.  I’m finding it difficult to follow this strict schedule I have for this academic year.  Like, really hard!  I rather work in an office when necessary, and be out and among my clientele.  Again, that is just me.  I am very acquainted with my own self and I understand what makes me tick.  It is this knowledge that govern my decisions and allows me to pick and choose my associations.

Everyone wants to fit in when the best people in the world choose to stand out.

Until next time,

Simone

Sojourning Into the Land of “Unfamiliar”

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers – 

It’s been a long time since we’ve spoken and I have missed all of you deeply.  Question of the day: Have you ever found yourself in a position that was frankly awkward? Like, you just did not know how to feel about where your life was positioned at that time. Awkward.  It is this word that best describes where I am in life right now.  I’m not in a comfortable place but I’m not uncomfortable either- I’m somewhere in between.  I’m feeling awkward.  Last time we spoke, I mentioned the demands of law school ( with anxiety that increases like a  pressure cooker). I feel like I’m doing well, but I don’t have any grades that can truly attest to that… awkward.  I joined a new church so I have a church family, but… I don’t really know (deeply know) anyone that I worship with…so awkward.  I live in a new city but I haven’t became acclimated with the environment so I have no idea about great places to eat… awkward, especially since I’ve been living in town since the beginning of August.  I feel connected, yet disconnected.  Accepted, yet rejected.  Fulfilled, yet purposeless.  I feel awkward as I sojourn in this land called Unfamiliar.

I’m in a place that I have never traveled through before, surrounded by people that I don’t know and who do not know me.  VERY AWKWARD.  But, is it not just like God to lead us into a land called Unfamiliar, down a path that’s never been traveled before.  I think God takes pleasure when we find ourselves in this very place- a place where we depend solely upon Him. Today, I’m reminded of Abraham.  God told him to leave his family’s house and all that he knew to go to a place that would be shown to him.  It wasn’t like God said leave your family and move to Egypt or some other concrete place near the Mediterranean. No, God said leave all that you are familiar with to go to a place that I will eventually show you.  If I was Abraham, I don’t know if I would have been able to leave everything and follow- but that is exactly what Abraham did.  He left all that he was familiar with and He left to go to a place that he had no idea existed.  I feel this story becoming more real to me as I left my familiar place (hometown) to go into a land  where I knew no one and nothing, to experience an adventure that God is only privy to at this time.  I have no idea where I am going, and no idea what awaits me when I get to that God destined place.

If this describes where you are: awkward, a place of being discombobulated, or slightly overwhelmed – take heart! We are exactly where God wants us to be.  We’re in this sweet spot with the Lord, where we understand we desperately need Him.  It is in this place, our faith grows… It is in this place, we experience all of who God is in our lives…  It is in this place that we conqueror fear and become fearless.  We are in a great space.  Our lives may not feel great and sometimes we may want to curl up on the couch and cry, but be of good cheer – we are in the perfect place to witness a move of God.  In an awkward place, the promise of a nation was given and received- God has so many things in store for us as we journey with Him in this unfamiliar place.

Happy Sunday y’all!  I pray God’s blessing over each and every one of you.  Know that I am praying for all of you daily and I look forward to these moments we have together.  I love y’all very much!

Until next time,

Simone.

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Essence Of Eternity

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

Have you actually sat down and thought about eternity? About the after-life?  Your eternal residency?

I actually thought about eternity and my hope to spend forever with the Lover of my soul, God.  I actually thought about it and this hope made death here on the earth, seem light and trivial.  I began to think about the idea that my eyes will continuously see the beauty that awaits me in Heaven. Every day, moment, year in and out- I will be surrounded by light, beauty and love- because of my relationship with Jesus Christ.

When you think about eternity, and you think about your own relationship with Christ; things here on the earth seem trivial and full of vanity – waiting to pass away.   But the opposite is also true, eternity for those who do not have a relationship with Christ is full of torment and fear.

We cannot escape eternity, wherever we end up because of our choices- we are there forever.

I think that if each of us took a moment to think about the weight of the word eternity, we would love people better; we would be honest and keep our word; we would live our lives sold out for Christ. Our reward for our work is a lifetime of being with Him, and I look forward to every second of it.

If you have any questions or concerns, please comment below or email me at authenticlove789@gmail.com.

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

“Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die;and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?”” John 11:25-26

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Lazy Day

I had a lazy day

sat and watched the rain

I did absolutely nothing

as raindrops slowly hit my windowpane

I watched with a longing

for something to do

for a few seconds

I wanted to be with you

“(c) Simone Holloway, 2014”

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Random Ramblings of a 21 Year Old Girl

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

I’ve been procrastinating all day about what I wanted to blog about but I decided that instead of planning something, I would just write out of a stream of consciousness,  That’s right, whatever comes up is coming out on this digital page to be shared with each and every one of you. lol.  So I’ve been thinking about a few things that I thought I would share.

Here are a few of my ramblings:

(1) I don’t really understand why people read my writing, really I don’t understand. Like why would anyone choose to hear what I have to say?  I know that sounds self-deprecating and I promise I’m not fishing for some compliments but sometimes I’m like why would I read my blogpost, you know? I  was never the best writer.  I remember being in school and doing awful on my English papers because my grammar was never the best.  I always felt like people never got me as a person, they never understood me or what I was trying to say.  So to see that people are actually reading my thoughts…simply dumbfound me and makes me wonder.

(2) I cry every time I hear Christina Perri’s “Thousand Years”.  Every single time, and I don’t even know why,  It’s like on cue- when I hear the song, the waterworks come.  Crazy, huh? I’m watching “The Voice” and this guy starts singing “Thousand Years” and I almost loose it. lol. Like, full emotional breakdown…I think I need therapy.lol.

I was going to take over the world...

(3) I’m going to the Bahamas in April and I can’t go until I don’t look like a swollen mess in my bathing suit.  When my mom told  the family that we were going to the Bahamas, everyone was like “Yeah…Bahamas..sweet!”, I was like “OMG I have to lose weight to look good in the Bahamas.” Shallow? Maybe, but absolutely true moment!

(4) My next date needs to be at an actual restaurant.  You know, the places where you have to sit down and look at a menu?  A place where its customary to leave a tip?  Like…an actual restaurant!  Don’t get me wrong, I love the spontaneous picnics and home-cooked meals, and trust me I love coffee dates and festivals- but I would actually like to sit down and enjoy a meal that neither one of us made together.  I’m just saying!  A dinner date is long overdue 🙂

restuarant

and finally because I could go on all night…

(5) So I was watching Dancing with the Stars and decided to tweet as I was watching…man, folks can be mean where it involves their favorite TV programming.  I was trying to be nice but honest and thought I was mean, but after looking at some of these comments- I had not even scratched the surface. I think it’s so funny how easy it is to hide behind one’s social media and forget the the people we talk about has feelings too.  Celebrities have feelings too, so let’s be kind on our social media.

So those are my ramblings for the night…I’m pretty exhausted and we’ll talk soon. If you have any random thoughts you would like to share with me, please comment below!  

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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I Run This…

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

I know it’s late but I could not got to bed without speaking to y’all today.  Let’s see, it was homecoming for the university I graduated from- so I spent time catching up with old friends and just loving on people.   Catching up can be very tiring and that led to a 3 hour nap and HuluPlus marathon shortly afterward.  I got a free moment to study the Sunday school lesson for tomorrow and I was reminded of the goodness of God and His sovereignty.  I was reading Job and when God confronts Job about his attitude towards his situation and etc, He says “I’m in charge of all this—I run this universe!” (Job 41:11 MSG). So I thought I would tell you what He whispered to me ..”I run this…”

Sometimes its easier to think that we are on the same level as God, like we control our own destinies.  Yes, we make choices that affect our lives but at the same time we are creation trying to figure out the Creator.  I have been so guilty of this…guilty of thinking that I know more than God and then becoming frustrated with Him when my life doesn’t turn out the way I planned.  Reading about Job sort of put me in my place.  I wasn’t around when the world was created, I did not tell the ocean how to be formed or instruct the animals how to live their life.  I was created like everything else, programmed with a distinct plan for my existence.  I didn’t think of myself and say hey I want to be on the earth..”Presto..be born.” In fact, I wasn’t around to make sure my parents got together, I wasn’t even around for their births.  I am just a product of God’s plan, a player in His game of chess and ultimately not someone that He has to answer to or be accountable to.  I am not on His level.  But…my attitude was saying something different as I questioned His about my circumstances, as I questioned His about His plan.  My attitude at its worst said “Hey You!  Answer to me – why?” Totally unacceptable.

Sometimes we needed to be reminded of who we are in relation to Him and then we’ll find ourselves full of humility and repentance.  I bowed my head and I repented for my attitude and how I approached Him concerning my situation.  In Job 38-41, God ask Job if He would like to take over His responsibilities as orchestrator of the universe- Job fell silent.  That’s how I feel, I don’t want God’s job: too much pressure and I’ll mess up .  I will fail humanity, where as He never fails.  He has a plan.  He knows what He is doing.  I think  we forget that God is not new at His job, been doing the same things since the beginning of time. This is not His first go around at the rodeo.  When we begin to think in this mindset, we begin to see ourselves as we truly are ( not on his level), and we begin to realize that we can trust Him. We can trust God with our lives…He knows more than we do.

Isaiah 55: 8-9 (MSG) says…

 I don’t think the way you think.
    The way you work isn’t the way I work.”
        God’s Decree.
“For as the sky soars high above earth,
    so the way I work surpasses the way you work,
    and the way I think is beyond the way you think

He doesn’t see things the way we do…our knowledge is limited, we only see so much but He knows and sees all…  He does things differently.

Jeremiah 29: 11 (MSG) says..

I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.

He knows what He is doing….He runs this!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

Snowpocalypse 2014: 5 things to think about

Hello friends!

It’s been a little minute since we have last spoken and as I sit here experiencing Snowpocalyse part 2- I thought I would spend some time sharing with you all.  So….let’s see I going to  graduate school!  Yay! I have a clear path ahead for my future, a clear path.  It’s crazy to think about how much of a wreck I was a few months ago but thanks be unto God who causes us to triumph.  

This snowpocalypse got me thinking about a few things:

(1) The paranoia of people in times of crisis

(2) Why do we go out and get bread and milk?  Both items are perishable.

(3) How beautiful the snow can be

(4) How this beautiful precipitation can be so annoying

and finally…

(5) How intricate and detailed each snowflake is.

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Why these 5 items you may ask, I have no idea- these were just the items that came to me at the time.  Everything doesn’t have to be some deep revelation, trust me – I know.  I’m sitting in my college apartment reflecting on the mindset of individuals in a state of crisis.  Just yesterday, I spent the afternoon in the grocery store picking up a few items that we ran out of in my apartment. I picked up the important things such as toilet paper, cookies, chips, etc…things to get by as a college kid.  It’s senior year, second semester, and chips are really on my grocery list as a necessary item, go figure. lol.  Anyways, I watched individuals go into survival mode, large grocery carts were filled to the brim with items that would go bad in a few days.  I saw individuals spend money they didn’t have to get things that they did not need because of the incoming snow storm.  Can you imagine being stranded and having pop tarts to get you by?  If I needed nutrition in a crisis, my body would not appreciate a pop tart.  I’m not knocking anyone, I was in line buying chips- so I am not better or worst than my fellow neighbor.   It’s just that I began to think about how much food was going to be wasted, how many homeless individuals would not be able to get any milk or bread and how mankind is so quick to make irrational decisions in times of panic.  How many people actually thought through what they had at home and what they needed, made a budget and stuck with it.  When we are in times of crisis, we forget about our budgets and pretty much everything else.  That was thought number one.

Thought #2 – Why do we go out and buy milk and bread?  Things that are perishable?  Can someone please explain this to me?  Have you noticed that mankind always go after things that are temporal, perishable, things that don’t last?  Have you?  If not, you’ll realize it one day, trust me.  If you have then you can probably identify some things that we go after.  Think about it , we seek pleasures for that moment.  For example, During Valentine’s Day, we go after chocolate, some kind of bubbly drink, a valentine, teddy bear, a date for the evening.  All of these things can and probably will fade overtime.  Our food and drink becomes waste, valentines are made out of paper that fade a break down over time, the teddy bear (it’s a hard one) but it won’t last forever and that date we seek for will probably not build a long lasting relationship.  We want self-gratification and we want it now!  Bread will mold, milk will go bad yet we stand in line for hours to pay a lot of money for these items.  Logical? No. A status quo? Yes.  It all boils down to a false sense of security.  We believe certain things keep us secure and will make everything alright if we have them but things can only do so much.  We try to make corruptible things incorruptible but that cannot be the case.  We are corruptible so how can we make anything in our lives incorruptible.  The only one that can make things incorruptible is the one who is incorruptible- God.  He’s the only one that can keep us secure and in snow storms, He doesn’t have to stand in line for bread and milk.

Thoughts # 3, 4, and 5: All about snow, beauty, and annoyance.  Sometimes the most beautiful things in our lives can be the most annoying.  We can have a beautiful relationship, home life, career, family, etc and they can be the most annoying people on the face of this planet.  This annoyance is not rooted in hatred or malice but rather out of love.  Sometimes we love people so much or things so much that  when things don’t work out the way it should,we become highly frustrated.  I was walking back to my apartment from class in the snowing thinking how beautiful the snow was.  As I was walking the snow began to stick to me and get in to my eyes and nose and then this thing of beauty was getting on my nerves,  When people or things are out of place in your life, they give you a feeling of annoyance.  the snow belonged on the ground, on the ground I saw it’s beauty.  When the snow was on my eyes and nose, it was out of place and was getting on my nerves.  Things are beautiful in it’s place.  What does that mean?  When the right people are in our lives, they add a layer of beauty to us.  When they are out of place but are still connected to you, they become annoying and increase your levels of frustration with them.  Your love for them fuels your frustration because you know who they can be – you see the potential and you just want to shake them to get their lives together.  I know, honey- I know! But like the snow, people have a way of finding their purpose in life, creating beauty once again.  Don’t give up on those you love, just watch them fall into their purpose.  

Lastly, each snowflake is detailed and intricate. Everyone’s purpose is intricate and detailed for a specific time(season), making your dream just as special as mine.  Dream and dream big because we need your dreams to make a better world. 

Enjoy this snowpocalypse and don’t  forget to give thanks to the One who has made everything.  

Until next time, 

Mo