Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers –
It’s been a long time since we’ve spoken and I have missed all of you deeply. Question of the day: Have you ever found yourself in a position that was frankly awkward? Like, you just did not know how to feel about where your life was positioned at that time. Awkward. It is this word that best describes where I am in life right now. I’m not in a comfortable place but I’m not uncomfortable either- I’m somewhere in between. I’m feeling awkward. Last time we spoke, I mentioned the demands of law school ( with anxiety that increases like a pressure cooker). I feel like I’m doing well, but I don’t have any grades that can truly attest to that… awkward. I joined a new church so I have a church family, but… I don’t really know (deeply know) anyone that I worship with…so awkward. I live in a new city but I haven’t became acclimated with the environment so I have no idea about great places to eat… awkward, especially since I’ve been living in town since the beginning of August. I feel connected, yet disconnected. Accepted, yet rejected. Fulfilled, yet purposeless. I feel awkward as I sojourn in this land called Unfamiliar.
I’m in a place that I have never traveled through before, surrounded by people that I don’t know and who do not know me. VERY AWKWARD. But, is it not just like God to lead us into a land called Unfamiliar, down a path that’s never been traveled before. I think God takes pleasure when we find ourselves in this very place- a place where we depend solely upon Him. Today, I’m reminded of Abraham. God told him to leave his family’s house and all that he knew to go to a place that would be shown to him. It wasn’t like God said leave your family and move to Egypt or some other concrete place near the Mediterranean. No, God said leave all that you are familiar with to go to a place that I will eventually show you. If I was Abraham, I don’t know if I would have been able to leave everything and follow- but that is exactly what Abraham did. He left all that he was familiar with and He left to go to a place that he had no idea existed. I feel this story becoming more real to me as I left my familiar place (hometown) to go into a land where I knew no one and nothing, to experience an adventure that God is only privy to at this time. I have no idea where I am going, and no idea what awaits me when I get to that God destined place.
If this describes where you are: awkward, a place of being discombobulated, or slightly overwhelmed – take heart! We are exactly where God wants us to be. We’re in this sweet spot with the Lord, where we understand we desperately need Him. It is in this place, our faith grows… It is in this place, we experience all of who God is in our lives… It is in this place that we conqueror fear and become fearless. We are in a great space. Our lives may not feel great and sometimes we may want to curl up on the couch and cry, but be of good cheer – we are in the perfect place to witness a move of God. In an awkward place, the promise of a nation was given and received- God has so many things in store for us as we journey with Him in this unfamiliar place.
Happy Sunday y’all! I pray God’s blessing over each and every one of you. Know that I am praying for all of you daily and I look forward to these moments we have together. I love y’all very much!
Until next time,