She’s Dead.

Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers

I bet many of you are looking at the title of today’s blog and you’re like “What???” But what many of you do not know,  is that a piece of me died today.  Yep, a portion of myself that held me back, that kept me stuck in the rut of my past, that caused me to lose hope/faith in God- that thing/piece died.  That fearful, anxious, timid girl died, and I’m happy that she has been laid to rest.

It’s insane to belong to Christ, yet still live like the world.  Right?  Why buy into this new way if you’re still going to experience the same old troubles and hardships?  Why work to never enter rest?  As I grow in my faith with God, I realized that the way I was living my life was never what he intended.  He did not design me to be stressed, extremely exhausted, malnourished and utterly miserable.  God did not save me so that I could have a miserable life, but this was my life day in and out- miserable.

 I was saved to be filled with joy, to hope in something bigger than myself, to live full out fearless and free from anxiety.

I was a bound daughter, living like an orphan, striving and working in my own strength to make my dreams come true.  Due to this life, I suffered greatly: mentally and in my physical health.  Yet, in grace and mercy, the Father never disowned me but in gentleness and compassion he beckoned me to himself and loved me anyway.  Though I was still the girl who was afraid of living, he still loved me.  Even though I still found myself in the rat race of life, he still loved me.  Even though sometimes I got it wrong: said the wrong thing & did the wrong thing; he still loved me.

It was this love that kept pushing at my fortress of fear,  it kept smashing against its doors, looking to destroy it once and for all.  For His perfect love casts out (banishes) all fear!

When I became a Christian, He promised that I would be a new creature that the old things of life would have no more effect on the new that was to come.  I lived as a ghost of my former self: afraid, anxious, lonely, depressed but my new self is none of those things.  My new self is fearless, full of trust, at rest, loved well, and full of joy.  So today, as I was talking to the Father, he explained that the season I was in was one of the old dying so that the new could come.  So today, I make a declaration in faith that the old person: anxiety-ridden, fearful, striving, lonely, depressed, and overwhelmed is dead.  She died and she no longer exists! I am now fearless, bold, confident, trusting, at rest, in peace, full of joy and optimism, at ease, and never alone for He abides with me.

Goodbye old, may you never resurface again.  Thank you for teaching me about my strength, thank you for showing me that there was more to life than what I was living, thank you for being my past- for my past led me to Jesus who gives me the authority to proclaim my perfected future.  Goodbye, good riddance, may you rest forevermore!

Hello new, may you spring up!  May I perceive you all the time, rest in you, and long for you.  May I never become content with settling with what I’ve already seen when there is so much more to come.  I welcome you, I identify with you, I identify as you: new.  I rest in you, for you are a gift from my Father to me.

Until next time,

Simone (new and improved🦁)

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Scriptural Citation: 1 John 4:18; 2 Corinthians 5:17; Isaiah 43:18-19

Also, a link to what the word casts out is in Greek and what that means, it’ll provide better understanding and context to the scripture referenced.  (1Jn 4:18)

https://www.biblestudytools.com/lexicons/greek/nas/ekballo.html

Creators Unite: 2018 is the Age of the Creative!

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

As 2017 begins to wind down, and this year quickly comes to an end.  I don’t know about each of you but this year (for some) was one void of inspiration and creative flow.  I spoke with some of my other friends who are creatives, and they expressed a great disdain for this year in regards to their creative ability.  Again for some, 2017 was the year of the creative block.  Artists, writers, innovators, struggled to imagine again.  We saw this inward turmoil when we looked to the films released, the music heard and even the articles written about our favorite celebrity icons.  It was as if the creative breath of our nation, left with the new presidency and the hope of good, imaginative thought took a downward turn.  Don’t get me wrong this is not a political blog and the new year is not going to change that, but 2017 for a lack of better words : purely, ardently SUCKED!  It was a taxing year of tension between struggle and progression and society once again found skepticism in the intentions of good spoken by humanity.

This year alone, I wrote less than the year before.  I lacked inspiration, hope, time and ingenuity and frankly loss my love for the written art form.  The greatest tragedy is for a creator to lose the ability to create again. I bet those with one-hit wonders could identify with that statement, and too long for the day when they can create something new.  That is my heart’s desire to create something new, to be an endless stream of creative thoughts and ideas in my pursuit to demonstrate love to those around me.  The same old- same old, is BORING and  my attention span for what is lackluster has expired.  I want to create, and I want to create something legendary.  Even some of you, my friends, I watched you hit a glass ceiling with creativity as your posts began to be more prolonged and your woes more apparent.  I have great news… I believe that the year coming is the year for the creatives!  It’s going to be a year of renewed vision, more innovative ideas, and just a stream of creative output.  It’s the age of the Creative!

So… was that a diatribe against 2017?  I guess it was… though I am grateful for 2017, for God has been extremely good to me, it has been extremely hard filled with intense pain.  Yet, the pain I’ve experienced, did not kill me.  I’m here, I’m grateful and I’m ready!  I’m ready to hit the ground running, looking to unite as we create together.  Creators Unite!  For it is our time to shape and influence the world, and the works we set now will be admired for generations to come!

Thank you to each of you for believing in me!  I appreciate every comment, read post, shared post and I love each of you for it!

I believe in each of you.  I believe in your work, your writing, your heart’s desire for good and I wish you the best this coming year.  Are you a creator?  If so, this is your time!  

Much love,

Simone 

©Simone Holloway, 2017

Desiring More

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

It’s been a while since we’ve spoken.  My life has been a whirlwind of highs and lows encased within a complex search for answers.  There comes a time in our lives, when we come to desire more: more of God, more out of life, more time, etc.   For me, it’s a desire to truly be happy with myself- like to believe that I am all that the Father says I am.  I’ve heard the affirmations, and I’ve been validated but I still have doubts that creep in moments of weakness.  I want to believe that I am beautiful on my ugliest of days.  I want to believe that I am gifted/talented in moments when all I can see is my mistakes.  Literally, some days I wake up to my flaws and that’s all I can see.  These past few weeks have been about regaining freedom and keeping the freedom that have been brought with such a precious price.

I desire more: more confidence/God-fidence, more certainty, more assurance, and just more presence.  I desire to no longer sense the loneliness that have accompanied my season of singleness.  I get it, when you live by yourself- there is a level of loneliness and depression that is  in-explainable.  It’s like you’re constantly reminded of where you are versus where you desire to be.  Even in these moments of transparency and vulnerability, I believe the Father is beckoning us to desire him.  He wants us to want him more than we want our temporary void fillers.  He desires that we desire for our lives to be filled with Him and His goodness.

For those who have been like me, in this uncomfortable ebb and flow of discovery- be of good cheer!  There is a light at  the end of the tunnel and there is so much more to come.  One day all of the pieces will fall into place, the way you feel in this moment- you will never feel that way again.  I’ve praying for each of you and if you need someone to talk it out with- I’m here for you!

Until next time,

Simone

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IT WILL HAPPEN!!!!

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Have you ever heard the voice of God so clearly, it stopped you in your tracks?  I mean one of those moments when God speaks so profoundly to your spirit, you don’t know whether to cry, dance, jump up and down- just shook? Well… friends, I had one of those moments today.  It was so loud like a blaring microphone, yet so small and still.  It was in this moment that I heard these three words: “It will happen.”  I don’t know about you guys, but the Enemy has been busying speaking lies to me concerning the promises of God.  He’s spent the last few years casting doubt like seed into my heart based on this waiting period I’ve been in, as well as other factors of fault on my part (sin), telling me that God is not going to do what He promised.  He’s even told me that I’ve messed up my chances of receiving what God had for me based upon my past, but he is a liar… the promises of God over my life and yours will happen!

The Father wanted me to encourage someone today and let them know that whatever he has spoken, promised or shown via dream/vision- he is faithful to make that thing happen.  Time has no power over the promises of God.  Circumstance has no power over the promises of God.  People have no power over the promises of God.  Since God is not a liar and He is always good even when we are not good- He keeps his Word!  I’m reminded of the story of Noah who for 120 years, preached that it would rain to the magnitude of a flood on the earth.  For 120 years, he preached the same sermon and people around him thought he was crazy; they made fun of him, counted him out to look like a religious fool, but Noah, believed that he heard the voice of God and kept preparing for rain.  It took a long time, but after awhile raindrops began to descend on the earth and those that mocked Noah were banging on the door of the ark begging to be saved.  The Father encourages you to know that those who counted you out, those that told you that your dream would never happen, that things would never change- those will be the same individuals that will witness God’s word come to pass in your life.

I know it’s been a long time and doubt has crept in but I come to speak truth and clarity to your situation- everything that God has spoken concerning you will happen.  Period.  Be encouraged, hope and joy is here!

“For just as rain and snow fall from heaven and do not return there without saturating the earth  and making it germinate and sprout,  and providing seed to sow and food to eat, so My word that comes from My mouth will not return to Me empty, but it will accomplish what I please and will prosper in what I send it to do.” Isaiah 55:10-11 NLT

Until next time,

Simone

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Sojourning Into the Land of “Unfamiliar”

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers – 

It’s been a long time since we’ve spoken and I have missed all of you deeply.  Question of the day: Have you ever found yourself in a position that was frankly awkward? Like, you just did not know how to feel about where your life was positioned at that time. Awkward.  It is this word that best describes where I am in life right now.  I’m not in a comfortable place but I’m not uncomfortable either- I’m somewhere in between.  I’m feeling awkward.  Last time we spoke, I mentioned the demands of law school ( with anxiety that increases like a  pressure cooker). I feel like I’m doing well, but I don’t have any grades that can truly attest to that… awkward.  I joined a new church so I have a church family, but… I don’t really know (deeply know) anyone that I worship with…so awkward.  I live in a new city but I haven’t became acclimated with the environment so I have no idea about great places to eat… awkward, especially since I’ve been living in town since the beginning of August.  I feel connected, yet disconnected.  Accepted, yet rejected.  Fulfilled, yet purposeless.  I feel awkward as I sojourn in this land called Unfamiliar.

I’m in a place that I have never traveled through before, surrounded by people that I don’t know and who do not know me.  VERY AWKWARD.  But, is it not just like God to lead us into a land called Unfamiliar, down a path that’s never been traveled before.  I think God takes pleasure when we find ourselves in this very place- a place where we depend solely upon Him. Today, I’m reminded of Abraham.  God told him to leave his family’s house and all that he knew to go to a place that would be shown to him.  It wasn’t like God said leave your family and move to Egypt or some other concrete place near the Mediterranean. No, God said leave all that you are familiar with to go to a place that I will eventually show you.  If I was Abraham, I don’t know if I would have been able to leave everything and follow- but that is exactly what Abraham did.  He left all that he was familiar with and He left to go to a place that he had no idea existed.  I feel this story becoming more real to me as I left my familiar place (hometown) to go into a land  where I knew no one and nothing, to experience an adventure that God is only privy to at this time.  I have no idea where I am going, and no idea what awaits me when I get to that God destined place.

If this describes where you are: awkward, a place of being discombobulated, or slightly overwhelmed – take heart! We are exactly where God wants us to be.  We’re in this sweet spot with the Lord, where we understand we desperately need Him.  It is in this place, our faith grows… It is in this place, we experience all of who God is in our lives…  It is in this place that we conqueror fear and become fearless.  We are in a great space.  Our lives may not feel great and sometimes we may want to curl up on the couch and cry, but be of good cheer – we are in the perfect place to witness a move of God.  In an awkward place, the promise of a nation was given and received- God has so many things in store for us as we journey with Him in this unfamiliar place.

Happy Sunday y’all!  I pray God’s blessing over each and every one of you.  Know that I am praying for all of you daily and I look forward to these moments we have together.  I love y’all very much!

Until next time,

Simone.

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A Good Place

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

It’s Thursday and I am absolutely exhausted! I think my body is trying to adapt to the mental demands that come with school at this level. I’m simply surviving with prayer, coffee, some Lecrae, and a few moments of sleep in the law library.  All in all, I believe that I am in a good place.  I just say that I was in a good place years ago, I wasn’t.  I did not know what a good place was until I found myself in divine purpose.  Yes, I deal with various giants and a slew of mountains but I’m a giant slayer and I tell my mountains to be removed.  Whether in the valley or on top of the mountain, I am in a good place.  This confidence does not come from perfection but rather from service to a perfect God.  He  has placed me into a good place regardless of the what appears to be, I am in a good place.

I’m reminded of one of my favorite scriptures in Psalms, Psalm 1: 3 in fact:

That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
    which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
    whatever they do prospers.

This scripture describes the one that willfully meditates on the Word of the Lord on a consistent basis.  Those who spend adequate time with the Lord, find themselves placed in a good place.  A place where there is constant spiritual prosperity, stability in daily living and favor with men.  The place I have found myself, though new and adjust-worthy, is a GOOD place.  I feel like I am in the perfect soil to grow and in a position of having amazing things grow with me.

Who would have thought moving to a new city, being surrounded by new people and engaging in a new program would be a good place?  But isn’t it like the wisdom of God to do things that do not make sense to yield the best results.  It’s the character of God to work outside of our comprehension to create His plans and purposes in our lives.

So friends, I just wanted to take a moment to encourage you.  I know life right now might not look good, and it may seem like good is never going to come- but hold on, good is coming.  In fact, I would argue that these circumstances is God’s way of bringing you to a good place.  I leave you with this,

For we know that all things work together for the good of those that love God and are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)

Good is promised and it shall manifest in your life!  Welcome to your good place…

Until next time,

Simone.

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The Cycle Is Broken

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

It’s been awhile since I have written a God-inspired piece for you all.  I’ve been in this relational poetry kick and that’s where my head has been over the past few days.

I just came out of my prayer closet and I went into prayer as a mechanism to get the Enemy before he got me.  Sometimes we wait for the attack to reach out to God, when with strategy we should work preemptively in the spirit realm.  I don’t know if anyone is feeling like me, but I am so tired of seeing the same demons in different forms.  I’m so tired of dealing with the same issues, of fighting the same battles- I’m tired of the cycle.  So tonight, I went into prayer in order to war.  I told the Lord, I’m not leaving this prayer time with you until this “root”, cycle breaks in the spirit realm.  I don’t want to see these same demons anymore.

I think we all have to get to this place with God, where we refuse to take “no” for an answer.  We refuse to accept our children will not come to Christ. We refuse to accept that we will live a life in poverty.  We refuse to accept that the enemy can come in whatever season he feels like it and torment/harass us with demons of our past and previous temptations.  We have to come to a place where we say “enough is enough” and “I am coming for you.”   We do not operate in our own strength but in the strength of our Lord, Jesus Christ who victoriously conquered  hell, death and the grave.  I’m tired of accepting things that should not be and I decided that tonight, I was going to do something about it.

So family, I sat my car and began to pray.  I prayed in my prayer language (also called the “Holy Ghost”) and went to war.  I said God, I will sit here and wait on you to break the cycle- to wipe the residue to make those connected to me free.  After I felt that breaking in the spirit realm, I sat and listened to hear from Him.  He dropped Exodus 14:13 in my spirit and whispered these words to me “the cycle is broken.” Tears welled up in my eyes and joy filled my heart because I knew that God honored my prayers tonight.

So I come to encourage you to declare and decree that over your life- “the cycle is broken.” No matter what it seems like, no matter what it looks like- I don’t even care about the situation feels like: the cycle is broken.  You are free. You are delivered.  You are whole and nothing can erase what God has done in the earth concerning you.  The cycle is broken, the appetite is gone, the desire for sin is extinguished- the enemy you have seen today you will see no more.  It’s finished. It’s done and it is completely broken.

 

Until next time,

Simone

The Application

I did it!

I finally submitted this piece of paper that dictates my future.

All 1500 words reflecting my passion and zeal of what’s to come

All I really want is for some-one to come say “There you have it folks, she’s in!”

Seriously, I curiously await a decision from those that do not know me or understand the struggle it took to get to even this place….

I hope new memories erase the old ones of disappointment as I pass this familiar corner again

I can believe, that my God did not leave me to play déjà vu – but instead, He is operating in the unseen

Picking up even these pieces that scattered on the floor as failure smashed my dreams.

I believe that this time is different and that in this moment, a catalyst occurred fueling a great exchange

A great change from failure to success, from worst to best

I choose to believe in nothing less than the truth that my God loves me

And that in this great love was the will to move ahead

To allow what’s dead to remain dead as I choose to live

in the newness of Him.

So yeah tonight I took a leap of faith and I stepped out of my comfort boat and I was beckoned to come

I came, I walked and I stayed above the water that sought to sink me

©Simone Holloway, 2016

Don’t Expose Too Much Too Soon

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

Happy Hump Day! I hope you all are having a great day, let’s get started. I was sitting on my lunch break when I began to think about this principle that I’m starting to take to heart- don’t expose too much too soon.

Have any one you ever had an idea and then you begin to share your dream and like Joseph you was persecuted for your dreams by those close to you. It’s crazy how persecution doesn’t come from those in the world, it comes from those in your house- those close to you because of the possibility that your dreams of supersession could actually take place. Persecution comes not from the outward display of superseding those around you but based upon the possibility that supersession can actually come true.

People aren’t afraid of where you are right now but are scared of where you are going. The bottom line is that darlings, you’re going; to go farther than those who you attend church with. You are going to go farther than your already successful family members. You’re going to go farther than those who have this “powerful” anointing and position that came with it. You’re going to go farther than even them and honey they are TERRIFIED!!!!

So as a piece of wisdom don’t expose too much too soon – keep some things to yourself and reveal it in the right time. Matter of fact, reveal nothing. Let the Lord reveal his awesome wondrous plans in your life when he brings it to pass. The crazy thing is that those who try to hinder your purpose and block your destiny will have to bow eventually. Let’s take a lesson from Joseph’s brethren and learn from their mistakes… Greatness can’t be stopped no matter how much energy goes into bringing it’s demise.

When you go to share even to those you look up to, shhh…say nothing yet and protect what God has given you. I’ve been holding a lot of things in my heart, and God’s getting ready to manifest these things. I’ve kept my mouth shut even from my church family – I’ve kept my mouth shut because I have to protect what is being given to me. I have to protect my promise from the Lord as if my life depends on it and that includes using wisdom in who I share with. So family keep some things to yourself!

Until next time,
Simone

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Simone Holloway, 2015

An Evident Shift

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers!

I know that I have been away from my blog community for a little season but I have appreciated all of yall’s love displayed in the comment section of some of my previous posts.  I really love you all who are in my blog community and family.

Okay, let’s get started with tonight’s discussion.  Today was a snow day for me, and I am doing all that I can to survive snowpocalypse 2016.  I had to attend work this morning, but the inclement weather forced the company to shut down and therefore I went home- driving EXTREMELY slow…. I would hate to face an icy death, I’m just saying.  As I watched the sky release snow, and then suddenly shift to sleet and then to freezing rain.  I realized that today we are living in the season of an evident shift, a time where we will see the hand of God moving in our lives.

I have spent so many years guessing whether the hand of God was moving in my life, like maybe – maybe not.  My faith shaky because each day was a guessing game as I looked at the present details of my life.  As some of you know, the last few years have been the hardest season of my life .  It was a time of disappointment, loss, betrayal and it took everything for me to trust and to believe in God and his goodness.   It took everything for me to continue to follow him even though I did not see him walking in front of me,  this faith walk took everything out of me.  I believe that God wants us to get that place, where it takes everything inside of us to continue to believe…

It is at the peaks of these crazy faith moments, in the moments that we trust in the midst of havoc that the Lord appears by our side and once again prove that He was journeying with us the entire time.  I believe that the reward for our trust is not only this relief in the presence of God, but it is his hand moving quickly in our lives and in those moments – WE SEE HIM MOVING!

I don’t know where you are in your faith journey.  I have no clue where you are in your walk with the Lord.  But I do know, that if you stick it out with Him and choose to trust and believe in the midst of the pain and in the midst of chaos, you’re going to see Him show up in your life and you will experience an evident shift.

Until next time,

Simone

“The race is not given to the swift, nor to the strong but to he that endures until the end.”

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