Wish I Had Known…

My love,

Sometimes I wish

I wish, I had known…

Why?

Why the doors of your heart…

were shut tight,

were locked, bolted, nailed– forever shut to the world?

Forever shut

be careful what you wish for

be careful

Sometimes our wish comes to us at night

Our wish taps us on the shoulder

It’s a message from God

The answer to our questions

The questions of..

Why?

My eyes are shut and sleep surrounds me,

in subconsciousness,

it surrounds me….

“STOP HITTING HER!” “STOP, DADDY STOP!!!” “PLEASE DADDY, STOP HITTING HER!!!””PLEEEEAAAASSSSEEE!!!”

My heart stops

My heart S L O W S to nothingness…

“MAMA!!!!!!, MAMA!!!, MAMA!!!!!”

It’s a little boy

with dirty blond hair

with teary ocean blue eyes…

beating the air with his fists

beating the air.

Tears…

Fill my eyes

I see a him

Seeking to protect his mama

Seeking to protect himself…

from the one he thought would protect him 

from the one he loved deeply

“SSSSHUT UP BOY!!!! YOU GET ON MY F—- NERVESSSSS….

GET OOOOUUUTT OF MYYY D— WAYYYY”

Slurred from his mouth

*smack*

*pow*

*boom*

He falls to the ground in pain

Tears stream down his face

Silence fills the air…

Scared, confused and lost

The little boy whispers…

“I hate you…

 …I hate myself.

Now I know 

Now I know why you can’t accept my love

And I still love you….

I STILL LOVE YOU  

Mo

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Copyright , Sept.23.2014, Mo