We can tell a person and say “I forgive you” as many times as we want to but it doesn’t mean a thing until we actually can say that person’s name, go around that person, receive a message from that person and not feel a way. About four weeks ago I went through a whole…
Category: Love
That’s Not My Job.
“I looked her in the eye and said, “It’s not my job to parent someone’s dysfunction.” Whoo! That’s something, right there! Say it with me: IT IS NOT MY JOB TO BE THE CARETAKER OF SOMEONE ELSE’S DYSFUNCTION!!!!! ” ©Simone Holloway, 2019
My Sacred Place.
“I bet the prince of Egypt never imagined living a life as a fugitive in Midian, but here he was reimagining all he dreamed. Yet, God being so gracious used curiosity to grab his attention for a meeting. God wanted to spend that time with him, the same way he desired to spend time with me.” ©Simone Holloway, 2019
RIP Forever.
” I said hello, and asked what he wanted. He responded with a classic lie: “I missed you.” I would miss me too, I mean your girl is out here living her best life looking like a whole meal. I said “Ok.” Like what am I supposed to do about that? That seems like a personal problem to me. He kept going, “I just wanted to talk to you. I made a huge mistake. You’re the one for me. I need you in my life. I want to marry you.” My jaw dropped because for years I wanted to marry this man. Can you imagine thinking that 3 years in is the time, then year five comes and no proposal, and finally, your relationship is over by year seven. Instantly my past started contending with my future. “©Simone Holloway, 2019
On The Run
Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers- If we’re honest, I’ve been in this amazing yet crazy place with God. For the past few months, I’ve felt like David on the run, hiding in caves, seeking safety/shelter. Can you imagine, you’re living what you deem to be your best life when transition hits? What…
No Shame
Y’all, I have no idea what this life of no shame will bring but I’m excited. I feel free, like in the depths of my soul. I feel like I can conquer the world. I feel strong and full of life in the inner chambers of my heart. I feel brave. It takes bravery to move into the unknown out of fear into love, out of being guarded to being open, out of holding things into being extremely honest. I am okay with where I am and that is freedom all in itself. I’ve embraced the truth about me and I am unashamed. I’ve embraced my triumphs and my failures, every ounce of my brokenness and the places where I am whole, all of my strengths and all of my weaknesses. I’m okay with every ounce of me and I am enough because I am in Him. I’m literally smiling as I type this article, overjoyed at the process He is doing in my heart. ©Simone Holloway, 2019
The Letter
“But How?” my hearts screams out. “How can we return to a place I never got to. I almost got there, I thought I was there but I failed… I never got there.” In love, He grabs my hand and whispers, “Your only failure would have been to marry someone who was never designed to love you. To procreate with someone who did not have the capacity to be a father and to enter into a business partnership with someone with no integrity. Babygirl, you did not fail. You succeeded! For you chose your future over your present and you chose what was hard over what was easy. You said Yes even though the cost was your heart. You, my dear, can return to this place…” ©Simone Holloway, 2019
Phone Calls
“I realized that I shied away from connection because it allowed people to see me. And I mean see me: in rawness, brokenness and undone. Yet, it is this baring of oneself that builds intimacy and connection. If you cannot see me fully, then you cannot know me and you cannot love me.”©Simone Holloway, 2019
Trust Issues
Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers, My name is Simone and I have trust issues. Yep, it’s true – I have a hard time with trust. I thought this journey of becoming was going to be easy. I shouted on the promise that year 26 was going to be the year of eradicating…
I Got It Wrong
“To be unafraid is to be truly in love.”©Simone Holloway, 2019
Authentic Love: God, Relationships, and Life 