Coming Undone

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Welcome to a new week and a new month!  It’s a time of newness, expression and becoming more in touch with the person God has created for you to be.  So… I went to church yesterday and my Pastor spoke about how creation is waiting for the person God has created to be revealed here on the earth.  As she continued to preach, I cringed a little bit because in that moment I was guilty… guilty of hiding the person God created. I bet a lot of you are like: “What???” “How???”

Well, here we go- it’s confession time!…

Like some of you, I have a plethora of gifts and talents that the world has no idea about.  I can sing, write, make pottery, I play drums, and I can also perform some poetry- but over the past few years, I have allowed fear, opinions of others, insecurities, perfectionism to hinder me from revealing all of who I am to the world.  To tell you the truth, I’ve placed confidence in others and their abilities but somehow forgot to believe in myself.  If that is not honest and transparent, I don’t know what is…  Like many of you, I’ve even convinced myself that what was burning on the inside of me ( a song, or a post) could be done, performed, or perfected by someone better or more skilled than I.  That is ridiculous, right?  It sure is… but these are the lies that many of us believe.  We believe that we are not needed, we believe that once we’re revealed the world won’t like what is presented before them, we believe that we are not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough= all lies that the Enemy uses to keep up hidden, dormant and dying.

What if I told you that freedom was not in some type of chant or mantra but simply in the idea of coming undone.  What if I told you that freedom was wedged between honesty and vulnerability?  That freedom was locked in you losing control and just going for it?

Yesterday, I left service with a new mindset and a new attitude, while making a new decision.  I decided that I was going to live my life coming undone, peeling back the layers I’ve used to cover who I am- I was going to reveal the one God created for this earth.  So…. Ladies and Gents, I encourage you to come out of hiding.  The world is waiting for you: your voice, your ideas, your cooking recipes, etc.  The world is waiting for you and only you. You being the one God created is enough and extremely necessary to the world.  Friends, I love each and every one of you and I’m praying fiercely for you- join me in this new season of life and let us become undone!

“For the creation eagerly waits with anticipation for God’s sons to be revealed.” Romans 8:19 HCSB

Until next time,

Simone

P.S. S/O to my Pastor and the Holy Ghost for WRECKING my entire life with a sermon that encouraged me to get myself together and to move forward undone!!!

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God’s Opinion…

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Well… it’s Monday and let me tell you I took an “L” during class today.  Have you ever been asked a question and gave an obvious wrong answer but before you can stop yourself from talking- your mistaken speech has already left your mouth?  This happened to me in Civil Procedure today I could feel the stares of judgement on my back…like, I was so embarrassed.  One of the first thoughts that can to my mind was, “Girl!  Everyone must think you’re so stupid now!” “Like, you’re soooo stupid! Why did you say that???”  Shame and embarrassment began to settle on me.  We can’t change the perception of others, but we can change how we perceive ourselves…

As I sat in my seat, eyes adverted to the floor, the Lord asked me a question:

“Which opinion is more important to you: mine or theirs?”

I could feel His presence meet me in that classroom and He began to share his thoughts about me to me.  “I think you’re smart, I think you’re beautiful.  I think you’re capable of more than you’ve ever imagined.  I think you’re going to make a great attorney! I believe in you.”  His words lifted the shame and his peace began to settle my soul.  There’s this scripture that says, “Those that place their hope in Me will not be put to shame.” (Isaiah 49:23)  There is no shame in Him, and his opinion supersedes the opinions of others.

Well…I don’t know what you’ve been embarrassed about or what defeating thoughts you’ve entertained about yourself- but I challenge you to see yourself, the way God sees you!  I challenge you to think highly of yourself because your Creator thinks highly of you. His love consumes all of the fear, doubt, and shame that comes to overwhelm us. He believes in us, so let us believe in ourselves!

Until next time,

Simone

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Nerves & Excitement

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers – 

This is finally happening. I am leaving home to pursue a career in law.  I move from my parent’s house to my own place in a few days and I am filled with nerves, excitement, and a whole bunch of feelings that I cannot even begin to understand.  I thought I would be facing this moment a couple of years ago, but the plan of God was different and He destined that I leave this year to begin that phase of my future.

As I think about the days to come, I am speechless as I grasp the idea of leaving my family, church family and all I know behind.  I’m utterly on my own, alone as I push toward my dreams.I am going to a place that my friends cannot go with me, even the one I loved more than life could not go and I’ve been placed in a position where it’s me and God for the long run.  I tried to busy myself so I would not have to grapple with these facts, thinking that if my mind is not idle- I can pretend that this transition did not effect me.  But as I am writing this evening, I feel tears threatening to be released from the prison of my eyes- I realize that this is it! This is exactly what I asked  for, prayed for , believed for… and instead of fear I should be filled with courage as i walk into this new place.

Courage.  I want to be courageous- I’ve been prepping for these days for two years and have met more hardships than anyone would ever understand.  I found out over the span of two years who were my friends and who were counterfeits.  I discovered that the word family means different things to different people.  I became guarded. I dumped the practice of being naive and I learned that in life you have to fight for what you want and sometimes you just have to cry it out.  You have to cry out disappoint, you have to cry out fear, you have to cry  and shed as many tears as possible to cleanse the soul.  Sometimes you have to cry to heal and sometimes you have to walk alone so that you can finally learn yourself.

There comes a time in our lives where we have to love ourselves first, so that we can love others.  There comes a time when we have to believe in our dreams, when no one else does.  Finally, sometimes we have to become prisoners of hope and hope for the best regardless of how everything around us is trying to steal that hope.  I fought for where I am, a J.D. candidate in the class of 2019 and I have so much more fighting to do.  I will fight until the end when I am sitting on a judge’s seat making the wrongs of our society right again.  Becoming a lawyer is the next step in the line of many  and the best is yet to come.

So loves, I thought I would share my heart with you this evening and bring encouragement regarding your dreams.  I know life has been tough, believe me I do – but I know that each and every one of you have the power within to change the world.  I believe in your dreams.  I believe in your ability to bring them to pass.  I believe that inside of you is a purpose greater than what you see for yourself and I am excited yet nervous at how you are going to bring your imprint of change to the earth.  I love you guys!

Thanks for being my family, for sharing your lives with me and for welcoming me into your lives as well.  Most importantly, thanks for sticking with me when I did not believe in myself.  Thank you Authentic Lovers!!!

Until next time ( when my workload gets a bit easier lol.),

Simone

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Soulmate

May you find your soulmate…

that person that make you catch your breath as they walk through the door

that person that makes everything in life sure 

that person that seek to make you smile 

that person that make your heart skip for miles

May you find your better half…

that person that makes life worthwhile 

that person who’s number is the only one you want to dial 

that person whose laughter becomes your song 

that person that makes your spirit strong 

May you find your rib…

that person that was designed for you 

that person that through every storm is willing to go through 

that person that is loyal and true

that person that you just knew – was for you 

May you find the love of your life…

that person that cultivate your dreams 

that person that effortlessly seem

to make life better 

May you find your living love letter….

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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Expect More

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

Happy Thursday!  Today is a great day filled with love, joy and an abundance of happiness.  It didn’t start that way, it started with plenty of headaches and bad attitudes and people just jumping for the chance to get on my nerves, but things have changed in a short period of time and for that I am grateful.

I was talking to the Lord this morning, and I came to the understanding that in order to live a rich life – I have to expect more.  I have to expect more for myself, for those I love and for the projects that occupy my time.

When we have no expectation, we usually experience no sense of change.  I believe that if we raise our expectations, we’ll stop settling for anything less than God’s best for our lives.

I believe in raising expectations- those who are meant to be in our lives, will rise to the occassion and fulfill those expectations of better.  Those who should be removed from our lives, will lag behind and drop off since they do not want to come up in life.  Expect more… from your relationships, from yourself/personal goals and from those you serve in ministry with.  Expect more!  

Expect change and change will come.  Expect love and love will come.  Expect respect and respect will come.  Expect more!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Reintroduction

We’re in the middle

of God’s game of shuffle board

and I am in this different

place than you

God has a cue

in His hand

ready to make His move

He pushes you left

He pushes me right 

out of darkness

into marvelous light

My cocoa skin blends

with yours,white

Like a disc

we’re thrown toward each other

defying the teaching

of our mothers

what time is it….

time for introductions 

except I’ve met you before

once upon a time

you was at my door

begging for me to see 

that you loved me

really loved

me with all your heart

from the start

I loved you 

It’s time for what…

for us to meet each other again

yep, my friend

it’s the new me

can you see?

Hello my name is

Mo..

nice to meet you!

(c) Simone Holloway, 2015

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Unconventional

Unconventional

Unpredictable

Uncommon

Jesus is all three

His randomness

Still affects me

I read somewhere

That He allowed his disciples to eat on the Sabbath day

He broke the rules

He lived life a different way

He was a rebel

Later on, He decided to heal

A man from a withered hand

Exemplifying love that was so real

He challenged authority

Those in charge were mad

They tried standing against Him

Losing the power that they had

He was against tradition

He was against routine

So why do we box Him in

Knit Him tightly at the seams

Let’s be unconventional

Let’s live outside of the box

Do what’s never been done before

Allow your mind to be shocked

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I’m Proud of You

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

The best words we can hear from anyone in our lives are “I’m so proud of you!”.  These words fill us up and makes us feel good on the inside.  My dad has a tendency to say these words to me randomly, in the spur of the moment.  I used to brush these moments aside as if they were nothing but as I got older I came to realize the significance of these tender moments with him.  My dad is very affectionate and loving but he doesn’t say a whole lot.  He is a man of few words- so when he sits you down and tells you how much he loves and appreciates you, this is a big deal!  He always looks me in the eyes and say “Baby girl, I’m proud of you!  I’m proud of the young woman you have become.”  These words bring such joy to my heart and they encourage me to continue living life the way that I do.  So today, I decided that I would like to share that same joy with you.   So, I repeat to you the same words spoken by my father to me- “I’m proud of you!  I’m proud of the woman/man that you have become.” I hope that your heart is warmed with the knowledge that someone believes in you and thinks highly of the life that you choose to live.  I love you guys and hope you guys have a great rest of your day!!!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

P.S.  Even if no one else believes in you, I believe.  Even if your dad has nothing positive to say to you, I speak positive things into your life.  Even if your family doesn’t think highly of you, I think highly of you- so does God and His opinion trumps the opinions of others.  Be encouraged and hang in there!  

Believe Again!

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

Today I would like to take some time to encourage you  to believe in your dreams again.  Sometimes after we have experienced the hardships of life, we come to the place where we don’t believe in our dreams- we give up! But today, I want to encourage you to take your dream book out of the trash and to believe in your dreams again.  Believe in your goals.  Believe in the possibility of a bright future.  Please, believe again!

God can make our dreams come true, but we have to believe in them.  In Matthew 19:26, Jesus says to His disciples “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” God can do anything!  He can help you fulfill your dreams, all you need is a little faith (the size of a mustard seed actually) in Him.  Stop looking at your dreams and doubting that they are going to happen.  Stop speaking negativity over your dreams.  Stop throwing in the towel when times get tough! Believe again!

Friends, I know that life throws us curve-balls and sometimes we think that life can’t get better, but it will.  Life will get better.  We will make it through our trials and tests, and we will overcome!  Jesus says in John 16:33b ” In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”  He has overcome the world and He has given us the power to overcome.  Believe again!

Until next time,

Mo ❤

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It’s Just A Test

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers- 

Today is usually Freedom Friday but we are going to do something different for this week.  Today, I’m going to spend some time encouraging you.  Next week, we will resume with sharing stories that exemplify freedom.  Sit back, read and enjoy!  

Have you ever been in a situation where they seemed to be no way out?  There seems to be no hope of things getting better?  

What do you do?  

Have you ever prayed and heard God say nothing?  Or, have you ever had to trust/ believe God in spite of what you see?  

Friends, I am in the place in my relationship with God where I have to follow Him even when I don’t see Him guiding me.  I have to trust in His promises even when I don’t hear His voice.  I think that sometimes God is silent on purpose to test the intentions of our hearts.  It’s like He wants to see if we will love Him in spite of what we are going through, in spite of what we are dealing with.  I’m here to encourage you and let you know that what you are going through is only a test, a test of faith/belief.  

You know, it’s one thing to say you have faith in something, but it’s another to put that faith into practice.  Sometimes, God doesn’t move the way we think He should in our situations.  This doesn’t mean that God can’t move in our situation ( He can do all things), maybe He is choosing a different way to move.  It’s easy to doubt that God cares and that He’s concerned during these times of silence, but we must not give up our faith in God.  God use these times of silence to test our belief, it is in these moments that we discover if we truly believe God’s word- our words are tested during hard times.  

 Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. (Hebrews 11:1 NIV)

What you are going through is just a test.  You can make it!  You can win! Keep believing in God’s word, keep trusting Him because before you know it- He’s going to work everything out!  Yes, He will. 

Until next time, 

Mo 🙂