Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers –
One of my sisters and fellow songwriter, Kimberly Hudgens, has this song called “I Am Yours”. This song is one of my favorites, this song has been a pillar of strength during the times that I had to make tough decisions. This song has carried me through times of loneliness, rejection, and even times of doubt- times when I doubted that God was near, that He was hearing me at all. Earlier today around 12:30 AM, I sat in the bathroom and I cried. I cried so hard, I felt like I bared my soul to God and a line of Kim’s song began to ring in my ear. “I am yours, you are Mine,” the Lord began to sing to me, “I am yours, you are Mine,” I began to cry harder as His lovely voice serenaded my spirit.
I felt so alone. I felt like my prayers were hitting the ceiling, like God did not care about me or my well being. I felt like God failed me, that He lied- but as I sat there and listened to Him sing to me, I knew that my feelings were not true. I was His and He was mine. He cares about me in such a way that it’s hard for me to describe. He loves me deeply. I belong to Him- He desires me, He wants me. I’m not by myself in this thing we call life, He is carrying me through the pain. He loves me.
All my life I desired to be wanted, I wanted someone to desire me to be in their life. I wanted someone to desire to be in relationship with me, but it wasn’t until recently that I realized that God wants me- I belong to Him. I am His and He is mine. He wants all of me- my fears, my doubts, my heart, my mind, my strength and in return He gives all of himself to me. He gives me His heart because He is mine. So today, I wanted to let you know that you belong, you are never alone- someone genuinely loves you. If you have been searching for someone to give you their heart, today God seek to give you His- hoping that you’ll do the same in return. He wants to belong to you! I love you all.
Until next time,
P.S. If you have any questions about what I’ve written or you just want to chat, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org . Talk to you soon!
“I Am Yours” (c) Kimberly Hudgens & Live to Worship. 2014