Celebrations

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

I ❤ celebrations.  I absolutely love to celebrate others.  It’s like I get this unnatural thrill of seeing people happy and smiling.  I love it when those I love are happy.  I get the chance to celebrate two of my favorite people’s birthday this weekend….SO EXCITED!!! I love birthdays,  to me it’s like God acknowledges that He created you for the world – that you are important and special .  Celebration of birthdays, graduations, anniversaries- all reflect that we are loved.  We are so loved that someone acknowledges the day of our birth- love it! I love giving gifts and eating great food; I love how for a few moments, happiness prevails and sadness is no longer.  I love celebrations!  So this evening, I encourage you to find something to celebrate.  Celebrate that you got to work on time.  Celebrate that you gave your speech without getting nervous.  Celebrate that your boss complimented you on your work ethic.  Celebrate the big things, learn to celebrate the small things – all in all: live a life of celebration.  Those who live a life of celebrating others, live happier lives.  Happy celebrating and I wish you all the best!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Out of Hiding

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

How are you guys doing?  I’m sitting at work, working too quickly and finding myself easily bored.  I love my job- I’m trying to learn as much as I can before I go to law school . The problem tends to come when I’m done and there is nothing left for me to do. That’s the problem! Anyways, at least I got to finish my nails- it took a week to finish both hands.  My life has been crazy, so crazy that I thought about hiding out for a few days…you know the whole “disappearing act”.  I used to be guilty of disappearing and coming back into “society” when I felt less overwhelmed and less anxious.  With the pressures of leadership and responsibility, I too have those days when I wish I could disappear for a few days and come back rested.   Well…that’s not going to happen. lol.

Anyways… I get the unique opportunity to listen to worship music at work and I am loving this Steffany Gretzinger album, “The Undoing”.  I absolutely love this album and the tranquility that its music brings to my work place.  One of my favorite songs is called “Out of Hiding” ( Father’s Song).  The lyrics says:

“Come out hiding

You’re safe here with me

There’s no need to cover

What I already see

Baby, you’re almost home now

Please don’t quit now

You’re almost home to Me”

I love these words because I used to feel so alienated from God because of the things I’ve been through and done- so, instead of facing things head on: I would hide.  I could hide out for months and isolate myself away from others and God but I’m so happy that God sees my hiding places and He calls me to Himself. He calls me out of hiding and into His presence so I can understand His love towards me.  

There are some of you guys who read this blog and you’re hiding. You’re hiding from love, family, memories and things that you associate with pain.  Some of you are hiding from your past and sabotaging your future.  Some of you are hiding from destiny and purpose.  Some of you are even hiding from God but He sees your hiding places and He is still reaching out to us, beckoning us to Himself.  Allow Him to bring you out of hiding today, out of your place of isolation and depression, anxiety and fear; and into His presence, into the depths of His heart.  He’ll keep you safe- I promise!  He’ll keep you safe.  

Have a great rest of your day!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

“Out of Hiding( Father’s Song)” (c) Steffany Gretzinger Bethel Music 2014

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Like Abraham….

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

These past two weeks have been so emotional, just because of the internal obstacles I have had to face.  Once again, I faced feelings of inadequacy, the opinions of others and the challenge of family and their expectations in my life.  I made up my mind a long time ago that I was going to live my life, whether people approved or not.  I was going to make my own decisions.  These people include my parents.  I have found that other the years, my parents- especially my mom, has this particular vision for my life.  I share some aspects of her vision but I’m not her so some aspects of her vision I do not share and have no intention of following.  My mom’s opinion matters a lot to me and her opinions have caused me to second guess the direction God has been leading me towards in life.  I realized that I rather listen to God and live my life according to His will than to live my life trying to please my mother.  I love my mom, I do – it’s just that I have to live my own life the way God wants me to live it.  I can’t stand before God and say I didn’t do what You told me to because my mom didn’t approve.  There comes a time in our lives where we have to make our own decisions apart from family and friends.  In these times, we will not be popular and they may not believe that our decisions are right but that is all apart of growing up- making your own God ordained decisions.  

I am realizing everyday that God is preparing me like Abraham, he is preparing me to go away from my family and everything that I’ve known before so that I can go a place that He is going to show me.  If we never leave those who have so much influence over us, we will find ourselves never walking out God’s will in our lives.  Doing your own thing is not a matter of disrespect, it’s a matter of growing up and we as a spirit-led people are going to have to explain to our family (esp. parents) that God’s plan is perfect.  Just because they don’t understand the plan, doesn’t mean it’s not God.  They have to trust God’s plan in your life.  I am coming to the place that if God says sleep at the hospital and my mom doesn’t approve, I’m still going to sleep at the hospital because God said so and not because my mom approved.  I don’t need her approval concerning my life.  Her approval would be great, but if she doesn’t approve of  my decisions- I will still love her and move on with what’s ahead.

We have to stop allowing others to have so much control over who we become.  If we’re not careful , people will live their lives vicariously through us and that is not the will of God.  The will of God is for us to be obedient to Him and His word, not to the opinions of others.  Yes, there is accountability.  Yes, God loves submission to leadership.  But, if your leadership is hindering you from fulfilling what God has said, He will either remove your leadership or grasp your attention so that you can heed His voice.  I rather make some people mad, even my mom – then be disobedient to God.  I can’t afford to walk in disobedience and make the wrong choice because of what other’s think would be best for me.  You have to live your own life with God and let others do the same.  I’m not advocating rebellion, I’m advocating taking a stand concerning your life and not living it passively taking the direction of others.  

Some of you guys are going to have to be like Abraham and leave what you know (who you know) behind so that you can move forward into the place God has destined for you.  

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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The One

tall

skinny

athletic

all on the list in my heart

funny yet serious

book smart yet street smart

gangsta yet reserved

numbers 11, 12, & 13 respectively

the funny thing is

lists

list may give you what you want

but not what you need

i need him

he checks out on my list

check, check , check

yet

he cheats

he breaks my heart

he mishandles me

i confused him for Destiny

Thank God for second chances

for hope

for something new

for my beach view 

sandy hair

ocean eyes

a smile that glistens like the sea

where did you come from?

check the list

you don’t fit

don’t fit at all.

Do I risk it?

Do I broaden my horizons?

Or, should I play it safe?

safe from harm…..

but, also safe from adventure

safe from delight

safe from “the one”

He’s the one I should risk everything for

yet, I succumb to my care of safety

I’ve been gone too long

Too long I’ve been gone

i leave my safe harbor

and I launch out into the deep

into the sea

i launch and ride the waves

knowing that He is worth…

every toss

every dip

He is worth the risk

only one is worth this

He is “the one.”

“Copyright, Sept. 25. 2014, Mo”

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We’re Progressing

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

So this evening, I fell into the trap of comparison and insignificance.  For a split second, I forgot who I was- i truly did.  I actually allowed the word can’t to come out of my mouth.  Crazy, huh? Sometimes God allows you to be tested on the same things you encourage others with, this happened to be the case tonight,  Thank God for good family and friends because I  could feel my face getting hot and tears leaping for the chance to be released from my eyelids….I could feel my eyes filling with tears.  I was so frustrated with myself and what I had to do that I simply broke down.  I broke down, but I’m so happy that even in this – I progressed and I moved forward.  We’re constantly progressing forward- we’re constantly learning and in times of frustration we learn the most about ourselves.  I hope you all are having a great evening….

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

I’m Proud of You

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

The best words we can hear from anyone in our lives are “I’m so proud of you!”.  These words fill us up and makes us feel good on the inside.  My dad has a tendency to say these words to me randomly, in the spur of the moment.  I used to brush these moments aside as if they were nothing but as I got older I came to realize the significance of these tender moments with him.  My dad is very affectionate and loving but he doesn’t say a whole lot.  He is a man of few words- so when he sits you down and tells you how much he loves and appreciates you, this is a big deal!  He always looks me in the eyes and say “Baby girl, I’m proud of you!  I’m proud of the young woman you have become.”  These words bring such joy to my heart and they encourage me to continue living life the way that I do.  So today, I decided that I would like to share that same joy with you.   So, I repeat to you the same words spoken by my father to me- “I’m proud of you!  I’m proud of the woman/man that you have become.” I hope that your heart is warmed with the knowledge that someone believes in you and thinks highly of the life that you choose to live.  I love you guys and hope you guys have a great rest of your day!!!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

P.S.  Even if no one else believes in you, I believe.  Even if your dad has nothing positive to say to you, I speak positive things into your life.  Even if your family doesn’t think highly of you, I think highly of you- so does God and His opinion trumps the opinions of others.  Be encouraged and hang in there!  

Wish I Had Known…

My love,

Sometimes I wish

I wish, I had known…

Why?

Why the doors of your heart…

were shut tight,

were locked, bolted, nailed– forever shut to the world?

Forever shut

be careful what you wish for

be careful

Sometimes our wish comes to us at night

Our wish taps us on the shoulder

It’s a message from God

The answer to our questions

The questions of..

Why?

My eyes are shut and sleep surrounds me,

in subconsciousness,

it surrounds me….

“STOP HITTING HER!” “STOP, DADDY STOP!!!” “PLEASE DADDY, STOP HITTING HER!!!””PLEEEEAAAASSSSEEE!!!”

My heart stops

My heart S L O W S to nothingness…

“MAMA!!!!!!, MAMA!!!, MAMA!!!!!”

It’s a little boy

with dirty blond hair

with teary ocean blue eyes…

beating the air with his fists

beating the air.

Tears…

Fill my eyes

I see a him

Seeking to protect his mama

Seeking to protect himself…

from the one he thought would protect him 

from the one he loved deeply

“SSSSHUT UP BOY!!!! YOU GET ON MY F—- NERVESSSSS….

GET OOOOUUUTT OF MYYY D— WAYYYY”

Slurred from his mouth

*smack*

*pow*

*boom*

He falls to the ground in pain

Tears stream down his face

Silence fills the air…

Scared, confused and lost

The little boy whispers…

“I hate you…

 …I hate myself.

Now I know 

Now I know why you can’t accept my love

And I still love you….

I STILL LOVE YOU  

Mo

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Copyright , Sept.23.2014, Mo

Love With All You Got

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

Sometimes in life, we have to give our all.  We have to give all of our effort, time and energy to see the change we seek in our lives.  It’s the same with love- in life, there comes a time when we have to love with everything.  There comes a time in our lives where we realize that we would like to love deeper and be loved deeply….the superficiality of love doesn’t seem to satisfy anymore.  I’ve learned that in order to learn how to receive love, I had to give love.  I learned to receive love deeply, because I loved deeply.  I came to the realization that in order to receive an “all-out” love, you have to love “all-out”- with everything.  So this evening, I encourage you to love with all you got.  Love the unlovable, love those who don’t understand you, love those who never experienced love the way you have- love with everything.

One thing my friends know about me is that I love deeply.  When I say I love you- I love you.  I love with everything and I prove this love with my actions and words.  I love with everything and I don’t regret it.  I don’t regret giving all of my love,  because I know that the love I put out in this world is given to me everyday- by a God who loved me before I loved myself.  He loved me with everything, so I love others with everything.  I give all of my love!

Perfect love casts out all fear, so as I love- I become less afraid of hurt and rejection.  As I love, I don’t fear disappointment and things not working out.  As I love, I fear no more and I live my life to the fullest.  I live with purpose as I love with everything, so love with all you got!  Give it your all and know that each moment you choose to love is worth it.  

Have a great evening.  Spend some time with you family and friends and just enjoy time to show love.

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

Born For This

Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-

I’m so sorry that I haven’t spoken to you guys in a while, I’ve been incredibly busy with my church. My mom preached at an event Friday and I was asked to play drums for that event.  This weekend has been a non-stop adventure and to tell you the truth, this weekend went by so quickly.  I blinked and before I knew it, the weekend was over and a new week was beginning.  Wow.  Today, I wanted to take some time to encourage you to be confident in God’s purpose for your life.

God has created a divine purpose for you, something that only you can fulfill.  Your special purpose here on the earth was handcrafted for you, and you alone.  This means that no one else can do your job the way that you can….You are significant to God.  You are important and you matter to Him.  Sometimes, individuals in our lives have a tendency to tear down our confidence.  They will begin to tell us what we can’t do and how we’re not doing something well… To tell you the truth, the language of can’t annoys me.  I believe in a limitless God, so why would I place limits on myself?  Why?  The language of doubt has a way of diminishing our confidence in our divine purpose, our role on the Earth.

I have discovered over the years that you cannot allow people, places or things to take our confidence.

If you was created to be an architect- you have to live your lives like you are the best architect in the world.  If you was created to be a nurse- you have to do your job with so much confidence and assurance that you are in the right place.  You can’t let others shake your confidence because you believe that you was born for a divine purpose/role.  You was born for this! 

We were born to be victorious.  We were born to walk in success.  We were born to live a life of confidence in who God is and who He created us to be- We were born for this!  SO when others ask you why you think you can be something, tell them – “I was born for that, that is my divine purpose/role.” STOP allowing people to shake your confidence and tell you what you can and cannot do.  You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you (Phil.4:13).  ALL THINGS…..You can do anything and you need to believe that for the rest of your life.  With this confidence, go out and change the world.  Do what you was born to do and make a difference in the lives of those around you.

Be confident!  Be courageous!  Walk in your divine purpose- YOU WAS BORN FOR THIS!

Until next time,

Mo 🙂

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Destiny Is In My Reach

Destiny is in my reach

I can see him

Turning around the corner

Walking up my street

Stepping up to my door

Destiny is in my reach

I can smell him

The smells of chocolate and vanilla-fill the air

It’s the smell of Victory

The sweet scent of “Overcome”

Destiny is in my reach

My hands can almost touch him

So close, yet so far

The gap is closing

He’s near enough for a hug 

Destiny is in my reach

My destiny is here

He’s here.

– ❤ Mo

“Copyright, September 18.2014, Mo”

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