Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-
These past two weeks have been so emotional, just because of the internal obstacles I have had to face. Once again, I faced feelings of inadequacy, the opinions of others and the challenge of family and their expectations in my life. I made up my mind a long time ago that I was going to live my life, whether people approved or not. I was going to make my own decisions. These people include my parents. I have found that other the years, my parents- especially my mom, has this particular vision for my life. I share some aspects of her vision but I’m not her so some aspects of her vision I do not share and have no intention of following. My mom’s opinion matters a lot to me and her opinions have caused me to second guess the direction God has been leading me towards in life. I realized that I rather listen to God and live my life according to His will than to live my life trying to please my mother. I love my mom, I do – it’s just that I have to live my own life the way God wants me to live it. I can’t stand before God and say I didn’t do what You told me to because my mom didn’t approve. There comes a time in our lives where we have to make our own decisions apart from family and friends. In these times, we will not be popular and they may not believe that our decisions are right but that is all apart of growing up- making your own God ordained decisions.
I am realizing everyday that God is preparing me like Abraham, he is preparing me to go away from my family and everything that I’ve known before so that I can go a place that He is going to show me. If we never leave those who have so much influence over us, we will find ourselves never walking out God’s will in our lives. Doing your own thing is not a matter of disrespect, it’s a matter of growing up and we as a spirit-led people are going to have to explain to our family (esp. parents) that God’s plan is perfect. Just because they don’t understand the plan, doesn’t mean it’s not God. They have to trust God’s plan in your life. I am coming to the place that if God says sleep at the hospital and my mom doesn’t approve, I’m still going to sleep at the hospital because God said so and not because my mom approved. I don’t need her approval concerning my life. Her approval would be great, but if she doesn’t approve of my decisions- I will still love her and move on with what’s ahead.
We have to stop allowing others to have so much control over who we become. If we’re not careful , people will live their lives vicariously through us and that is not the will of God. The will of God is for us to be obedient to Him and His word, not to the opinions of others. Yes, there is accountability. Yes, God loves submission to leadership. But, if your leadership is hindering you from fulfilling what God has said, He will either remove your leadership or grasp your attention so that you can heed His voice. I rather make some people mad, even my mom – then be disobedient to God. I can’t afford to walk in disobedience and make the wrong choice because of what other’s think would be best for me. You have to live your own life with God and let others do the same. I’m not advocating rebellion, I’m advocating taking a stand concerning your life and not living it passively taking the direction of others.
Some of you guys are going to have to be like Abraham and leave what you know (who you know) behind so that you can move forward into the place God has destined for you.
Until next time,
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