Hello old friends, new followers and fellow bloggers-
I’m so sorry to post so late, I’ve been trying to avoid spilling my true feelings on this here blog- but what can I say: Here we are. Tonight’s post is appropriately titled “Bullet Infections” because I believe some of us are suffering in our hearts with this very issue. I’I think there comes a time in our lives where we experience pain, some stronger than others- but still again pain. It’s like we are hit with bullets that we can either choose to address or pretend that we were never hit. I think I lived a life filled with pretending, pretending that things did not bother me. I spent a lifetime pretending that I didn’t have a broken heart or that I never faced serious rejection, when in fact I did.
I was in prayer today when I realized that I was once again- not treating the bullet that hit me in the heart, therefore causing my heart to be infected with all kinds of things such as fear, bitterness, resentment and etc. We cannot move forward until we deal with our hurt and pain. Here’s the deal fam: I care for someone who has proven not to care about me. This person speaks of their care for me and mutual respect but yet slaps me in the face with rejection on a consistent basis. The last time I was rejected, I said- “Oh I don’t care. It doesn’t bother me.” But in all honesty, it did and I caused me to question everything even my relationship with God. When a seed of rejection is sown, that thing has to be uprooted or it’ll sprout something horrendous and open the door to the Enemy to run havoc in one’s heart.
I was infected, because instead of removing the bullet from my heart- I did not acknowledge it and therefore the wound got infected. Wounds need care to heal! I needed my heart to heal and that started with me acknowledging that something was wrong. We need to acknowledge that something is wrong in order to become better. So this evening, I’m healing and as I heal -I know that I will be able to help others in their healing journey.
Until next time,
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