Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-
Have you ever watched a movie, invested in it and then at the end was left disappointed? Literally, my life ten minutes ago. I checked out a new film, invested two hours and fifteen minutes into the film, but by the time I got to the end I was like “OMG ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?” It was as I was #AvengersInfinityWar’d all over again! But, Ladies and Gents- that feeling of disappointment matches some of the relationships I chose. I entered into these relationships: excited, intrigued and overwhelmed with the hype of who their representative swore to be but by the time I got to the root of the substance that lied within the individual, I was quickly disappointed. It’s nothing worse than wasting time, especially in people. How many of us were attracted or intrigued by an individual and when push came to shove, was ultimately disappointed by what we invested into? This is something, I’ve experienced and I these are the thoughts I would like to share with you.
So…why are we attracted to the shallow and insufficient? Why do we jump all the way into things without testing the weightiness of it? I think all of my experiences were rooted in fear. Fear of being alone. Fear of not connecting with someone in the same way. Fear that nothing better will come along. The crazy thing about fear is that it will have us dancing on the line of desperation, in an effort to control what’s next. I think that we jump too soon because we’re scared that we’re going to miss out because of time. Time like sand slips through our fingers and we feel this anxious clock hovering over us telling us who we should be by a certain year. I ran into relationships because of these fears and I was disappointed because I invested in something without counting the costs. I made decisions out of my fears and I was disappointed. However, the Father promises that if we place our trust in Him, we will never be disappointed. God choices do not disappoint. Choices construed out of myself, feelings, and fears are going to disappoint me every single time.
What I love about God is that He doesn’t get mad at us if we choose wrong, but instead He reveals to us what we need so that we can choose right. He does not disappoint us, we disappoint ourselves! So… let us move forward and let us make the God-choice where it concerns relationships! Let us choose what He desires and we won’t find ourselves disappointed.
“… those who hope in me will not be disappointed.” Isaiah 49:23