Hello old friends, new followers, and fellow bloggers-
I have come to the realization that I have become a master at hiding my desires. I have become so accustomed to sacrificing my desires in the pursuit of my dream. When you are the oldest sibling and you cannot get what you want all the time, you learn to adjust. Life has taught me that my wants are not more important than my needs and this has caused me to mute my desires out of those desires not being “necessities.” If I am honest, I think I’ve internalized a deep sadness for settling for “immediate needs” without gaining what I truly desire. Now, I am not out here advocating for picking up sinful habits. I am talking about muting your inner voice because you want to be deemed “content.” I am talking about allowing church people to convince you that you should satisfied with the hand you were dealt. I am talking about feeling bad about a standard, trying to tame a drive. Over the past few years, I have recognized that it is best to be honest. Overall, it is better to be real than politically correct and gosh darn it, there are some things in my heart that I truly desire.
Well, you might be asking: “Simone, what do you want?” and I am here to provide you all with a concise coherent bulleted list. So friends, here we go:
- I want to travel. I want to go all around the world. I want to go on an adventure.
- I want to work in an environment that sharpens me toward growth. I want to be fruitful in my career. I want to run my own company and to thrive as my own boss.
- I want to be a voice for justice.
- I want a chocolate lab.
- I want an additional hour in my day.
- I want a new car.
- I want to never plateau creatively.
- I want to attend a concert or music festival really soon.
- I want a personal assistant or a clone, whichever comes first.
- I want a man that values me and pushes me to be my best self.
- I want a family, possibly a few children.
- I want to inspire people, to empower them to become all they were created to be.
- I want to no longer feel bad for desiring more, for desiring something real.
Friends, be honest about your desires. State what you need and never place someone else’s needs/desires as more important than your own. You matter and to master self-care, you must be willing to confess your needs and desires to yourself and to your community.
Have a great weekend!