I spent so much time angry...

Angry with life and angry with you.

I have wasted so much of my time in frustration

wanting something that you just cannot do.

To love to me, means to give my all

It is to emulate the Son.

It means to love with no conditions

and to deeply care about someone.

This is the way the Father loved me

He loved me enough to give His life.

He's preparing a place in eternity

He is the bridegroom and I His wife.

So I expected something of you

that you simply did not have the capacity to give.

I expected the same kind of love

I expected you to have mercy and to forgive.

But this is the flaw in expectations,

they are never close to reality.

They have the power to keep one bound

when God comes so that we may be free.

I can't expect something from you

that you can't give to me.

You must know Love to give love

And in His love, lovely is what you'll be.

So I take away all expectations of you

I accept you for who you are.

One who may never reciprocate the love I give

who may never heal from his scars.

I hope life gets better and that you learn to love.

I hope you meet Him who resides above.

So in the midst of my heart's pain, I sit back and laugh.

All I know is, you can't give me what you don't have.

©Simone Holloway, 2015

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